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Tuesday, May 27, 2008
punch punch
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zoom out. extra siot.
haha
hamidah nye !
sink ni lea bnyk kali try bukak pon tk pass. hahah
nice tau
onni !
:D
Today is so suckish.
Total solitude lah sey.
Wktu netball, orang yang dkat ngan aku is only
Fara, Azlin, Nadiah and si mulut ternganga tu, shi ting.
Lea tk dtg.
Then balek, all alone.
Tsk3. I took 143. Beh kan, naek atas, tkde org pon.
Shiok ! tapi sunyi giler babb urh.
Yesterday so damn fun.
Ade bdak tu btol2 ingat aku pi johor.
Kwang3.
Bile nak pi queenstown ? tk sabarrrr.
Happy 14th Birthday, senget.
My wish for you is to be my slave :D
Mama and me baru2 ni seriously bnyk gadoh. Pasal bastard pon ade.
Idk why, and kat rumah, many weird things happen.
Some things went missing, and some stupid assholes dunno that there’s supposed to be silence at night. MP3 aku ade ayat kursi tau myra, haha.
My blue jeans hilang la sey. Bile da jumper, aku bilang ok.
Roses are red
Violets are blue
I lost my jeans
And it is blue.
Seha got a pink rose yest from that indo boy in ac.
Goddd. She doesn’t want it, so she gave it to me.
Woooo~. I put in water bottle you know.
Nice. Tapi kalau red, lagi woooo!~.
And you, I don’t know if I’m the one at fault.
I’m sad, very2 sad. It’s been almost a month.
Idk if you realised it, but I’ve been counting the days.
And I had to bear having you around cos of ___.
I wanted ___ to be happy. Idk if you could see my drama.
Acting as if I’m okay with you.
Maybe you don’t understand me right now, but I think I gave you enough time.
And I gave you so many chances already.
It’s all up to you right now, I’m not taking any more steps I guess.
I’ll wait.
And if you choose to do what you’re doing right now, fine.
I’m prepared. But that doesn’t mean I’m happy, aite.
I’ll just pray I’ll be fine soon.
I’ll try. I leave it to God. Maybe He will one day show you what to do.
[ entah kan kau rasakan apa yang aku rasa, atau kau tak endah ]
IHYbILYnIMY
It was hard at first. I was numb.
But bcos the others were there, I somehow pretended you weren’t.
I’m sorry, but I was afraid I would regret.
Rossa’s Perawan Cinta ( edited ikut suke hati aku )
Telah tertulis takdir dariNya
Untuk ku berhenti merindu
Bibir beku, bila kau bertanya
Sukarnya, mengapa ?
Kau bersumpah untuk bersama
Mungkin kah kau mungkiri jua ?
Bila tiada masa untuk bersama
Telah kau lupa ?
( chorus 1 )
Haruskah berasa salah di diriku
Bila tak mampu meluahkan segala
Dan terus membuat engkau bingung
Dengan hati ini ?
Namun kau yang menghindari diri ini
Dan kau tahu hati ini merindui
Hati kecilku mengatakan ini
Harus diakhiri
Sering ku dengar suara-suara
Berbisik untuk menghentikannya
Hati resah, bila fikirkanmu
Jadi dilema
( chorus 2 )
Tapi hanya ku yang terasa pahit
Kerna tanpa ku kau tetap bahagia
Seolah aku hanya bertepuk
Sebelah tangan
Kini ku hanya mampu untuk menunggu
Saat terbaik untuk aku luahkannya
Walau hatiku telah lama terluka
Aku pasrah…
aku mawu pi redhill and queenstown.
know, 22nd May 2007 was the last time aku lepak sane.
Tuhan saje lah yang tawu. rindu~.
itu ari kan, naek 143 ngan myra and nadh.
skali. jeng3.
Ahmad tu naek bas, dudok directly facing aku siot.
pretend tk kenal konon. heish.
lagu, lagu dan lagu.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
damn..
exam results are killing me.thanx ppl for consoling me waktu aku wekk tadi.
very the so the much appreciated.
aku bet aku paling stupid and pathetic dalam sbsbs.
confirm dpt overall lowest.
bet $10, anyone?
ini for real nye tau.
Filiana Bte Abdur Rahman,
sorry urh kalau aku ter, ter dan ter ape2 kat kau.
let's just stay this way, owwwkay. ?
aku promise ler aku maseh layan kau.
tk kan ignore or yeah, whatever.
Amyraa, asl tadi emo???
the blood test was okay, though I started whining when the blackie nurse took out that thing from my skin.
bloody stupid you know.
she put at my right arm there, tk masok vein.
then die kuarkan, saket you know. then she cocok on my left arm.
luckily da makan. kalau tak, jadi mcm the first 2 blood tests tu.
giddy gilerr. seeing my own blood can make me eeeeyurr.
today, myra was so excited to change her "bisik" thing.
tsk3, da gitu, dalam toilet bnyk nah sound effect eh.
beh dapat besar nye, jakun plak tuh.
godd.
yesterday was late for school.
then I & seha wrote fake parent's letter.
and due2 dapat lpas.
seha, second time you know!
tsk3.
let these do the explaining, :] .
Kutangkap bintang
Kuberikan kepadamu
Agar impian kita menjadi realiti
Namun bezanya, tidak kita tahu.
Kutangkap bulan
Sebagai pelita kegelapan hati
Agar lepas dari perangkap kerinduan
Kerana engkau kini tiada di sisi.
Kutangkap matahari
Menjadi dian harapan kau beri
Agar janji tidak kau mungkiri
Entah jika kau masih peduli.
Kutangkap titis hujan
Penawar hati dahagakan kasih
Agar hilang segala parut dan luka
Yang kau tinggalkan di hati ini.
Kutangkap angin
Kugenggam erat, kekal abadi
Agar bisa membuat hatiku dingin
Memberi kekuatan melangkah lagi.
MALAM
Malam
Engkau sentiasa menemani hati sepi
Engkau berikanku mimpi-mimpi indah
Juga masa untuk melihat alam fantasi
Namun kau hadir dalam gelap gelita
Pabila si mentari kian luput di ufuk barat
Engkau bertandang kembali lagi
Namun kau akan pergi jua
Bila mulainya titis embun pagi
Malam
Engkau sahaja yang mendengar
Tangisan hati ditusuk sembilu bisa
Lihatlah kebenarannya yang terpapar
Di manakah harga diri seorang manusia?
Apakah mereka lupakan semua itu?
Mengapa mereka begitu cuai?
Lantas kecuaian itu memberi kesan amat buruk
Malam, mengapa mereka begitu lalai?
Malam
Pesanku, jangan kau lupa
Selaut tangisan telah kupenuhi
Janji padaku, jangan beritahu sesiapa.
Ni lyrics edited from Rossa's Kini. !!! best tau lagu dier.
Kusedari semua jalanku
Tak berarah kepadamu
Mungkin salah diri ini memikirkanmu
Aku kini telah terluka
(chorus)
Kerna kita tak seperti dulu
Yang bahagia bila bertemu
Kuakhiri, namun tak berakhir
Kuhindari, hati tak ingin terluka.
Bila engkau telah pergi
Sesungguhnya, ku rindui...
adios ,
nasyiBARNEY.
:(
this song makes me cry more. ? weird
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry ( this part la siol :'[ )
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Something's changin' inside you
And don't you know
Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight
Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you
Tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking' of you
And the times we had...baby
And don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight
And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight
this way~
I need to forget it to move on
But I can still remember your smell
I thought you're somewhere close to me
How can it be
I need to erase you from my mind
But I still feel your arms holding me
Everytime I close my eyes
Now you have gone so far away
But your presence is still too real
Why you left me to feel this way
I still feel your warm breath in my ear
When you whisper the sweetest thing
Why you left me to feel this way
This way
Don’t you know baby
That this feeling
Keeps me waiting like
Like you’ll come back to me
And sometimes in my dreams
I see you smiling
But when I wake up
It just disappear
let's forget this.
guess I have to be a teeny weeny bit more straight-forward.
I tolded myself that, I can't. urgh fark what am I crapping about.
shithead.
yeah, it's been me all this while.
I'm trying to forget this, tau.
I'm sorry if I was too harsh.
that's the bimbo side of me.
I'm trying to forget you, I guess. frankly eh.
Idk if I can. but I try.
it's not worth trying hard to climb to the summit just to get knocked right down upon reaching it.
not worth being with you when the one who's appreciating every moment we spend together is me, myself and I. and time flies very fast. and some day we're gonna go separate ways.
hah, idk lah.
but I'll just act normal in front of you, I promise. I dont wanna talk about this any more.
I'll try to stop the heartache myself. I'll try to stop crying.
cos I assume you're alright. yah. forget it.
yesterday pat skola tido dlm class.
had a nightmare.
bangun tros nanges.
damn scary. kan nadh. scary marrrrry.
three ppl. A, B and C.
A walked out of the class, cabot skola or something.
then I looked out of the window.
saw A on one side of a road.
going towards B and C on the other side of the road.
and A crossed the road without realising a car speeding towards A.
and that point of time, I woke up, turned behind, found that A was safe and sound, and I cried.
shit, I shouldn't have slept.
and I'm always traumatised by my weird dreams, idk why.
ape nadh?
ur future depends on ur dreams so go to sleep kan.
and I think I'm losing someone to some other ppl.
I don't seem to be part of those ppl, tht's why.
and this feeling mcm ade kene mengene dngn mimpi buruk tu.
phm tk nadh? mmm.
haiyo. sampai skrg maseh tk bleh belik m nasir nye album.
actually this week da bleh.
then this bloody shit thing uh, fuck fuck fuck.
urgh, syiba, when can you stop complaining eh?
I failed my eng paper 1. yay?
nk bet tk? aku confirm overall I'll be the worst one dlm sbsbs.
biase urh.
aggregate baru 237, msok css pon pasal si polka dot monster tu and cca.
at first pon tknk appeal into css.
nak masok swiss cottage. mama urh ni.
I think I should have joined swiss cottage.
at least the competition would not be this hard, God.
education is UNCOOL.
smlm tunggu GG punye lah lembab.
lembaaaaaaabi eh nadh? kwang3.
I'm still so curious about marching.
Marching is UNCOOL.
what's the point siol?
exercise? nah, cannot be.
borriiinggg.
exactly 1 more month to spend with abang.
damnn.
malay dance was somehow weird yesterday.
only 13 ppl come. good ppl like me.
first time buat duty.
cekgu tertanye tanye "mane secretary cekgu ni? dudok sini lahh."
that's damn cute of cekgu.
hai, secretary tk gune.
ok bubye, gtg, cheebye.
:/
songs that remind me of YOU. alot more, actually.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
pics
aku mcm ju on. :/
clementiku!
gangster makan aiskrim.
chong la sey
>.< I'm afraid of my own shadow.
cck! area si bastard tu. ni park dulu aku pi kire bintang ngan die mlm2. :'(
Iloveyou~
ju on kat tangge.
cute!
step emo oni
? senget?cherry-flavoured panadol, miaomiao and chocolate.
Urgh. I’ve decided da. For my own good.mmm. sometimes loving someone isn’t really something good.
Or something that makes life more meaningful. Life isn’t that way, anyway.
Maybe it depends on the person. Not the person who’s loving, but the person who’s loved.
It’s a matter whether they appreciate it or not.
Even if they do, will they treat us the same way we treat them?
Nahh. Ohshutthefuckup.
Jealousy, ke-tidakpuashati-an, ke-nakcarikpasal-an, kebungaan, rindu disease, and TIME. Inilah problem nye kalau bnyk sngt kawan in this world.
Take some time to listen who you think I’m dissing.
I hate you, I hate you, I swear I do.
But I love you and I can’t deny.
The way you treat me changes as days go by.
Yeah2, just gimme some time you idiot. ( INSPIRED BY EMINEM )
Are you clearly aware of what you’re putting me through?
Bet you don’t. My heart’s been breaking oh-so-much cos of you.
Well you don’t care so stop giving me that fucking glare
I can’t bear. Cos the way you’ve been doing me is damn unfair.
It’s always me, ME ME ME ME who tried damn hard to be
To be close to you, even when you’re too blind to see.
But you just act like you don’t seem to see, not a single shit.
Damn, look at me, look at what you did, you fucking bitch.
Now the pieces can’t be mended, since all this while you pretended
Acted like I never existed, walking pass not saying a word.
Oh what did you take me for, you bloody idiot?
And I can’t keep it no more, here’s to you, bastard.
to sweet plus sour ketchup.
You gave me a call yesterday night,
You thought you were in the wrong side.
It’s something you said you cannot hide.
Without me things just don’t go right.
I’m sorry I didn’t pick up the phone
All I wanted was to be alone.
I cried and you’d know it from my tone
Thought you will call again, but you won’t.
I told you before about the two of us.
Didn’t think this relationship would last.
You were someone I could trust
And things between us happened so fast.
People hate the way we’re going on
But you never seemed to mind about them.
So I thought it’s fine to hold on
But things went totally wrong, damn.
Man, I should have seen this coming.
And now pain needs time for healing.
Distance pulled us further and further apart
I wish we can go back to the start.
6th May, aku dan acap jadi official besties.
so I have 2 amiruls and 1 amyraa now.
amirul ashraf ( acap ) dan amirul hakim dan amyraa bte zukiman.
we talked alot tht day, sampai msgs aku da nk exceed.
haha.
cherry-flavoured panadol and aku da lame tak bebual.
aku give up, I really do.
1. umur kami
2. studies
3. busyyyy
4. friends
and about the vow, I don't know. Allah, pls help me.
i dreamt of cherry-flavoured panadol a couple of times already this week.
i dare not tell anyone but myself.
you know why it's cherry-flavoured panadol?
you know what it tastes like?
I dreamt die msg aku yang die rindu aku.
aiyoyoyoiii. and I woke up, tapi tu sume mimpi. damn sad.
it's not that I'm avoiding you, but I can't be bothered.
no, it's not that. urgh.
I don't know if I miss you. I hate you more than I miss you. but urm if that's the case, I guess I do miss you. But I dont wanna be ss any more.
I never wanna tell you.
cos I bet, once you know it, you are gonna say you miss me too.
and they're like empty words. like, you said that just bcos I said I miss you.
I hate tht feeling.
so yeah, I give up.
it hurts hearing your name, but I'm afraid chocolate nanti dpt tawu, and nanti try nak solve the prob. i hate tht fucking situation.
kejap on, kejap off.
bile kau nk lyn, lyn sngt. tapi bile tk, aku mcm sampah. >.<
nta, idk if I'm doing the right thing.
miaomiao.
miaomiao mcm baru2 ni nak replace aku.
close dngn chocolate, close ngan cherry-flavoured panadol jgak.
and aku mcm tersingkir dari diorang.
nasyiba, who cares. you still got acap and wool.
hah, idk. it's not that I hate miaomiao, I like miaomiao.
miaomiao aku da treat mcm kawan aku da.
but aku seriously rase tersingkir.
chocolate.
sorry if I threw my temper on you.
you know me, baby. hahah.
this week, I'm like keeping most of my stuffs to myself.
got no choice :'( .
yest is it? nurse form polyclinic called, talked to mama.
I got thalassemia minor. urgh. and - Allah, aku tknk maki.
I'm skipping cca next week. got injection. and I pay them all by myself.
all the money I've been saving all this while - $10 a week.
oh dear. just one injection is $25. wtfish. oops.
and that lotion is $20. Allah :/.
broke uh aku. >.<
today, balek tros nanges.
1. sim card rosak
2. mama at johor
3. seha tknk kasi pinjam hp
4. tk leh cntact acap
5. cherry-flavoured panadol
6. I dont want my exam results
and now, sleepy banget. my eyes are swollen from all the crying.
and I've been thinking of cherry-flavoured panadol toooooooooooo fucking much.
should I forget cherry-flavoured panadol?
should I ??? Allah, help me, pls.
sry la kalau the other day tu pi bastard punye area buang mase aje.
but I miss him. but I hate him. but I love him.
fuck, idk. I still can't get over it.
got so many kenangan pat cck. damn.
yay. cross country target top 20.
dapat 17. yahooooo.
pagi2 hyper sket.
ptg je, cb.
naseb baek valudllr shop jual root beer.
kalau tk, habes sume org aku marah.
heish.siak la kay, aku asyik pk psl panadol tu aje.
kejap sweet, kejap bitter.
and sometimes, bile aleh2 teringat die,
rase sebak di dada.
and I can't believe I cried bcos of cherry-flavoured panadol.
like, the serious sebak. u know, a sudden urh, how to say uh.
a sudden pain at ur chest. as if you're about to cry.
not those in my compos, tu sume drama mama.
but this one's real. like as if my heart literally breaks.
no, that is impossible. and the pain is like making you feel weak.
and then your shoulders collapse gitu. and that makes your eyes teary.
and then your eyebrows jadi tk stable.
k why am I talking about sebak di dada.
hah.
urm. aku kalau bad mood, aku bebual sorang ehk.
yest, rabak sak.
ironing board tak stable, bebual.
strika tu asyik tersangkut kat board nye, bebual.
uniform ade stain, bebual.
handphone berbunyi, bebual.
saket perot pon bebual.
k la bubye.
:'(