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Miss Awhhsomeee.  Nasyiba Sahari :D 18% dummiesity 17% crapology 14% chimonology 12% cleverbumness 11% stubbornism 9% vaingloriousity |
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my lovelies ahmad aisyah(junior) amelina atikah(junior) atiqah(PTPS) atiqah anuar(CSS) ayuni elfin faraway farhana(PTPS) filiana fitri gisela hidayah jasmine kaiqi aka kiiqa(dance camp) kasilah myrah(OBS) nadhirah nadiah priscilla qayyum rara(PTPS) sabrina(PTPS) sarah sohniya suhaila(junior) verlyn zhong ting credits
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"yang kat seblah kanan tu sume muke nak masuk syurge ehh"
zul.kart.atiqah.nash.qhayreel.sab (:
dean !!! grr grr grr.
see lah. tidak ke retarded tu. dlm ramai2 org, 3 je tawu camne nak ambik gambar. hahahha.
anyway. today, met Dean right outside ptps and went to meet the others at 371. wow, really, everything was relived again. thanks my friends.
generally today was soooooooooooooooooooooooo FUN to the max. stupendous! hahahha. Acap was like the all-time joker and he makes us laugh like maddddd. long time never laugh so badly. after zul came, we all started joking on kuda kepang. Acap would go crazy over imitating those kuda kepang cos zul took up kuda kepang.
so it continued and damn it was so bad cos Acap could smartly relate every little thing to kuda kepang then at the end of the day KUDAKEPS was formed. hahahah. chong nye? zul.
so from 3pm till 5pm was lepak-ing. 4pm I felt so hungry already. hahah. tahan baa, tahan. then I came back for a while to change, then came back to lepak again till break fast time. we had a superb time breaking fast together and talking and talking. I wish we could do it often.ate chicken chop:D and ice lemon tea was sooooo heavenly ;D right sabon. then we talked, wow. I discovered smth really cool, a 15-year-old girl is allowed by her mum to let her 19-year-old boyfriend to live together under one roof. and at home, they are kinda regarded as hubby and wifey by her own mum? whoa. that's advanced learning. hehe. cool right. but yeah, still some disadvantages here and there :/
then after break fast, went to sunset way there to lepak again and that was the funnest part I guess. Acap was madly high with his yellow ribbon everywhere and bibi&baba and ustaz syarahan about kuda kepang and matrep catwalk and pocong dancing(omg I remember so much). so everyone got hyped up. no kidding, it was super gerek. took a pic with dean(: and he went off.
for dean, well. tsk. I hope we really keep in touch my friend. soon you're migrating, :( just don't forget me, don't forget the rest of us. then when you come back don't forget your way to clementi.
he got me choco from LA!:D:D ahh. I'm gonna miss you. and the rest of kudakeps, seriously we're just friends(: show some warmth.
ohh I remember this:
"abeh camne nak tawu bile buke ni?"
Acap: pukul 7, aku webcam ngan Allah.
hahahahha. tak abes2 ngan webcam2. lame but yeah LOL.
and again my beloved peitongers, THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE EFFORT PUT IN TO RELIVE THOSE MOMENTS AGAIN. to those who came from all over - pasir ris, woodlands, and still stayed with us till night time, you guys are so loved. alamak nak nangis arh. so yeah this kudakeps: me, sab, kart, zul, atiqah, acap, shalihin, syazwan, dean, qhayreel, afiq.
then these ppl were there too: syafiqah, taufiq & hidayat.
baa syg korang.
hahha. well. if baa says you should erase her from your mind, would you please? please.
xoxo,
baa.
I wanna be really part of OMS.
today I finally texted azura after months.
I'm oh so not committed.
tsk. then now sis doesn't agree cos next year's o levels already.
WAH SIANN.
nak tgk ismahairie lagiiiiii:D
LOL. joke2. he was there at akar mekar lah cann?
ooh ooh, ahh ahh.
I just love the ambience on every keroncong session.
I wannt I want I wantt!
:(
I've just told Seha: I think I'm mentally sick. can?
I can't sleep:(
I've been doing homework since 1am.
anw. what to do.
Mum went back hme for awhile today.
she talked crap.
wanna sell the hse, wanna let me stay at granny's.
hah wth?
let's just see.
declampus betul.
then she said as long as you can still use the com,
use it. she doesn't wanna pay any more.
hahaha.
ok aku gila.
I didn't get a nice grade for malay :(
and long time never take pichass.
anyway.
I loveee this song:
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
(lisa loeb - stay)
let's make the best of each moment now,
cos you never know when is the last time.
today is Fridayy.
carrot must be happy today.
must make me happy as well.
(: good day!
Labels: praying hard.
I liked it.
fortunately it wasn't double geog and double english lessons.
swapping of lessons suck to the core.
I really would hate it. but thank God.
God knows how I am.
God knows who I am.
I'm thinking of you.
I threw my pringles against the wall.
so you have more reasons to leave now.
cos I'm insane.
oh well. after I talked to cikgu,
honestly I felt a lil better cos someone wouldn't scold me about what I did. someone trusts me that I didn't mean to do what I did yesterday night.
but I just pictured him again.
I wished he would pick me up from school on his bike. oh how I wish.
I wish the whole life I had left behind wouldn't haunt me this much.
I wish I knew. I wish I understood.
in the bus.
I feel dolorous today.
but never mind,
tomorrow will be a STUPENDOUS day(:
hahahhahaha.
if you don't love somebody any more,
it's equivalent to never did love somebody at all.
do you believe? learn to.
and it's the saddest fact of all.
when you don't need somebody any more,
(okay can someone complete this?)
sigh.
she's going,
another she, is talking again.
what is that about.
cos at the end of the day,
they don't know a single thing about what I did.
and what I've been through.
and now, I don't mind if you don't.
but they don't know me.
do they even know you?
all the things you hide from me,
all the shit that you do.
the last bit.
I'm sorry.
I think I really am now,
I'm human.
tapi cam orang tk sihat.
tu psl lah.
tu pasal lahh.
there's a place I wanna go but I don't know where.
there's someone I wanna meet but I don't know who.
perhaps.
dad, I really really need you now.
Mum'd ran away. idk to where.
I wish I could too.
to you. but she'd left the message even after she's gone.
and though you're my father no matter what,
it's my mum's words and I have to obey.
one day I'll go and find you,
I promise I really will.
today is the day.
today is the day.
today is the day I hit her with all my might.
today is the day I kicked her with a chair.
today is the day I showed how mad I was with life.
today is the day I let it out.
today is the day he beat me, for the first time.
today is the day she reached out for my hand and pleaded.
today is the day she cried in my arms.
today is the day I shrieked and shrieked.
today is the day I shrieked like the world is deaf.
today is the day I did banging in front of them.
today I then cried and felt numb like my blood couldn't go any further.
today I felt faint.
today is the day I never wanna live any more.
today is the day I almost .
but today is the day I really need you.
but today is the day I feel like I hugged you tight.
today, I feel your presence reminding me again & again to stay.
cos I'm forever your daughter.
but ayah today I did things I wish I never did. big sins.
I never intended to.
why?
really, .
today I lost myself.
it's better you leave me alone.
before you witness something I don't want you to.
hahahhahaa.
hallo.
cramps hit me like atomic bombs exploding in my vavava.., -.-
I really don't know why it's kinda late.
don't freak me out.
I sang a jiwang song today in the lift.
hahhaha. at night if you hear somebody singing near the lift lobby don't think it's kak pon plak. and hallo, these things are not imprisoned alright. HAHAHA too bad for someone so kedekut like ahem. hahahhaa.
anyway. I miss my phone. tsk.
too bad have to wait for some inconsiderate ppl to pei me right.
haiiiyaaa the Mr Leong's way.
in 2 weeks, 3 ppl called me loser. hahhaha wth?
anyway today was owwwkay.
everything was owwwwlright.
except yeah, owwwching pain my vavava...,
then tmr got english ct on vocab. like whereeeegootttttsucchhhhthingggoneeee.
hais. gila punya olang.
:D love it when the cold wind blows at night and you open the windows and watch the sky and the moon :D (smile always)
goodnight honeys!
Labels: everything-unspoken
LOL.
I guess I've figured it out.
the world is like that, isn't it?
perhaps when one has gotten the best and never really realised,
you have to stop wishing for any better.
and in case - yeah, just in case, I've pictured it.
sleepless nights, emptiness every moment.
after that, things will all be a big big question mark.
that's how humans leave things hanging.
and it's basic humanity that one says "hey imyt" when the other says "imy:(".
okay I've just read my post title and grinned.
I swear I'm getting more and more sensitive each day. like, you've got no idea.
almost every day I'd raise my voice at mum or sis, run to the bed and play tracks on max volume and you know I know.
then there goes homework and all.
outside, I can't take people boasting or those who think I'm boasting when I'm truly just saying some random things.
I feel like smacking their asses.
sickening.
so yeah. BEWARE.
well fate has quite been on my side actually.
though I had some mass in newton units in physics test,
at least I didn't have some 2kg apple XD
SO CUTE FOR WHAT.
that thing still makes me lol.
anyway I got my first A in term 3 already. hoorayyy.
life isn't that easy huh.
ahhh.
crap.
:] toodles. ILYBAA. hhahaha.
badigol so'od punya olang.
jendul X)
short hair is missed.
safiah is missed too :(
where are you now?
now.
I don't mean to do this. but I can't contain any more.
I flipped through my diaries in the wee hours realising how long it has been.
how much I've been concealing and not let a bit of it go.
and how I thought it would end one day.
well it ain't that way. not at all.
cos it's an endless situation where every choice I have, has to hurt.
if not my own heart, I might hurt others'.
I chose my own. and still.
you might have gotten the slightest clue.
bt trust me, what you know is totally nothing compared to reality.
maybe I'm the one to blame for not telling,
but I don't wanna be such a pain in the ass.
perhaps I already have been. for being with you.
and I never know how much it could have been hurting someone else.
someone I once cared for.
and how do humans refuse to care?
I wish you won't make things obvious about whtever that is going on that I don't know, cos I don't wanna know.
and I don't know which is meant to be.
I don't know what lies ahead.
I don't know what's inside your heart.
I'm holding on to whatever the world is making out of it. back to the topic, let's just make things look fair now.
someday I would be HEARTless
cos you're taking every bit of IT away.
Labels: I just wanted to be the one.
"andai esok aku menjadi tanah, sudikah engkau menjadi bunga hiasi dadaku?"
^.^
:P your calculator or mine?Labels: have you seen the worst of me?
cute kannnnnnnn! ^.^
the last time.
he gets fits when I pinch O.O HAHAH.
nasyiba.arpakorn[:
and damn it Mirza is deadly cute.
CUTE NAK MAMPOSH.
misseds:(
:(
ahha. the last bit.
:D
:DD
ahh bessst.
monster in the bus ahhh get down!
coke light tin got butterfly ahh ahh ahh! :D
another sweetie :D
blk 412 O.O
loved! :D
seduce seduce ahh ;D su taught me the seducing eyes.
lipstick time!
she doesn't look like chinese does she? ^.^
at first she liked him.
really.
and then she got mad cos he didn't wanna talk to her. :D hahha get it!
ahha suuuuu!
missed :(
aku suka dressing rooms!
suuu lagi XD
look at the prata man armpit so hairy XD don't go prata wala! later you find armpit hair in the prata XD
mak seha & mak caca!
NUS hostel, forgotten date.
the cat so emo. like wanna commit suicide. *gasps!
akar mekar is so damn missed.