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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
laugh lahh. everything is a joke right.I'm sorry.
I think I really am now,
I'm human.
tapi cam orang tk sihat.
tu psl lah.
tu pasal lahh.
there's a place I wanna go but I don't know where.
there's someone I wanna meet but I don't know who.
perhaps.
dad, I really really need you now.
Mum'd ran away. idk to where.
I wish I could too.
to you. but she'd left the message even after she's gone.
and though you're my father no matter what,
it's my mum's words and I have to obey.
one day I'll go and find you,
I promise I really will.
today is the day.
today is the day.
today is the day I hit her with all my might.
today is the day I kicked her with a chair.
today is the day I showed how mad I was with life.
today is the day I let it out.
today is the day he beat me, for the first time.
today is the day she reached out for my hand and pleaded.
today is the day she cried in my arms.
today is the day I shrieked and shrieked.
today is the day I shrieked like the world is deaf.
today is the day I did banging in front of them.
today I then cried and felt numb like my blood couldn't go any further.
today I felt faint.
today is the day I never wanna live any more.
today is the day I almost .
but today is the day I really need you.
but today is the day I feel like I hugged you tight.
today, I feel your presence reminding me again & again to stay.
cos I'm forever your daughter.
but ayah today I did things I wish I never did. big sins.
I never intended to.
why?
really, .
today I lost myself.
it's better you leave me alone.
before you witness something I don't want you to.