aku punye blog :D

2010

2010-01-01T02:28:00.001+08:00

HEY I'VE SHIFTED TO

www.zuperawexomeee.blogspot.com

happy new year!

xoxo

man I still love this blog ;]

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2009-12-31T14:20:00.002+08:00

I thought we were doing good before this.

the saddest thing is I've never really seen right with my own eyes, the real you.

thank you zo much.

old hangout.

2009-12-30T12:50:00.003+08:00

this is so! old but I'm so! sorry I think I still looked so! kiddy cute.

man, I'm gonna miss having my uniform on.

LOL as if I'm graduating in weeks.

I'm a bit too certain that I'm joining Ngee Ann Poly in 2011.

they got Arts Business and it sounds cool.

going for Ngee Ann Poly's Open Hse next saturday 9 jan after CCA open hse.

ANYONE JOINING? ;)

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this is dangerous. listen at your own risk.

NOTE: if you really wanna play then don't watch his face.

many committed suicide after listening while watching the writer's face.

hehe I like to sing the "I waited & waited" part hahahahaahah

ska version !

2009-12-29T22:10:00.002+08:00

another pictureless video. I discovered I really can't concentrate having the cam right on me playing the keyboard while singing. :(

anyways lyrics on youtube. lazy. :D enjoy.

BTW I love ska but I am NOT a rude girl yeahz.!

YES BABY, THE POWER OF KEYBOARD!

pitchas.

2009-12-29T17:37:00.004+08:00

after hours of doing nothing I decided to decorate my house with Wanna'B cafe's balloons.

Saturday, 261209 : Kita Pun Ada Talent semi-finals.

blablabla, I didn't get through D: but I'm kewl (Y) afterwhich I had dinner at Changi Airport's McD's with monster.

then I heard this guy came in 1st. boomboomboomchackxzjyeahkaboomboomboomchackxz. hehehee I predicted well (Y) that's why I recorded only his performance ^.^ teehee.
"going up" -the heaven elevator.

kahkahkah ape aku merepek nih.
this girl totally reminded me of someone puhhh, I almost asked her if she knows ... but I didn't. boomz skali siblings arh? wahahhaa. but her name jauh lei. Nazihah ^.^
I like it when RZ does his gay voice hahahaha.
yeah shits cos I taught monster how to take picture but I didn't teach her to zoom in =.=

and this was what I took when I taught her to operate the camera and then I realised my trial photo looks KEWL! :
kay can you appreciate the art of this? hehhe

Sunday, 271209 : SI grand finale

got tix from my one and only sotong omg I so love you.

then off with Shalihin and his friends bla3. GREEN FOR SEZAIRI!

man, somehow actually I thought Sylvia should have won. then I was duper ultra confused. heh.

OKAY LAH BOTH ARE AWESOME but . okay shut upp.
can you believe she's 14?

it was AWE~SOME.

this dummie cannot use POM POMs. his was deflated. so he took mine and got them deflated too.
pretty ugly.!

the SI show was amazing but I thought the seats would be full but there were many good empty seats so we kept changing places hehehe.

I thought the mercy performance was boomz! tsk, vocab bank running out of words lah.

and Charice was zillion times boomz. when she sang, I totally had goosebumps. !

I was screaming out my lungs lorr.

I bumped into many many ppl I know.

1. Cheryl from OBS.

2. this dikir barat kakak (psst, pakai tudung (Y))

3. Jonathan and Renee (?) yeah, frm css.

4. Ammar Zhafirin (I swear I couldn't recognise him before In told me so)

5. Cikgu Irda

that's only what I knew. Singapore is soooooo teeny weeny gummy baby.

that's all then

adios amigos. :D hehe homework?

I stress for a while, but never do one!

promiscuous.

2009-12-29T16:03:00.004+08:00

I feel like dancing, dancing. had dance today and it wasn't enough D:

we had 3 ppl on trial from clementi, fuhua and princess elizabeth pri sch.

I loveee my new dance pants :D

oh yes. the stupid law tht says cyclers can't cycle on pavements is just ubber stewpid. like they ran out of ideas to get money.

kay why am I talking abt this everywhere. I don't like politics.

I'm like lazy oh mannnnnn D:

yesterday evening was funny. layed in bed horizontally with them at both my sides, I was the only one terbalek and talked cock. every time they grew silent I go HAAAAAACHUM! suddenly. terkeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeejut kakak. hahahahah

my facebook is sucking. big time.

I zuper can't believe I'm graduating next year. can you? answer answer answer! fuh, idk why lei. sometimes time should just slow down. ehh, mcm Gabriella Montez lah plak.

if someone was here I'd be strangling him/her and yelling I'm a sec 4 in 3 days!!! RAAAAH!

and I zuper can't believe my bigger family is sucking too. this totally sucks.

okay fine peace out.

geeeh boring nye.

if you're not the one then why does my heart say so?

2009-12-28T14:52:00.002+08:00

supposedly uploading pics today. then straight away can focus on hmwk.

tsk, D:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA like real.

I had a weird morning today. HAHAHA I was late for sec 1 orientation briefing and coincidentally the only lift that was already on the 12th floor was the one with the friggin dim lights and it was damn dark inside. and I was wearing black. but I was late so I didn't bother waiting for the other lift. and so when it reached the third floor, there was this shop n save auntie who popped out of nowhere when I'd already pressed the button for the door to close. and she was giving me this shocked look cos I had my eyes widened like yeah, usually without me realising. after that, she walked away. HAHA do I look like some bloody mary or what.

oh yes. talking about mary. the one in schl ah. I talked to her today and I knew she heard me well I said "I lost my ezlink card" twice and she went HUH?

irritating. gadabush!

anyway I can't wait for the sec 1 orientation :D

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sometimes I feel like I can't wait to be real adult, but at other times I wish I'm not growing any older at all.

that's why one day you see me wearing heels, and other days you see me with my monkey clinging on my bag. or my little miss magic shirt or my butterfly hairband.

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yesterday night was crazy.

one moment I was losing my voice I think I shouted about 26 times?

(random siol)

shalihin was matrep he dyed his hair gold HAHA.

his friends are kewl and I was supposed to show them kallang's mamak stall somewhere but I had no mood after knowing my ezlink was lost so I headed home straight.

I think ppl think that not having ezlink is ohkay cool, you can get a new one or smth.

I JUST DON'T LIKE NOT HAVING IT, FOR SOME DAMN REASON. hate it ttm.

every time I'm outside I think about soooo many huge stuff and when I get home I can't remember them.

I miss you.

I miss youu.

I miss youuu.

I miss youuuu.

I miss youuuuu.

I miss youuuuuu.

I miss youuuuuuu.

I miss youuuuuuuu.

I miss youuuuuuuuu.

I miss youuuuuuuuuu.

I miss youuuuuuuuuuu.

and have you got any idea on how foolish and pathetic and crazy and painful it is to not know what to do?

kalau tegur mcm beylo,

kalau tk tegur mcm kental.

tapi kalau kite buang ego,

kan lebih afdal!

I had 333 posts.

2009-12-28T01:22:00.001+08:00

I'm thinking of creating a new 2010 blog. hmmm.

anw tmr's the sec 1 orientation briefing and WE SHALL BRING OUR ENTHUSIASTIC SPIRIT ALONG.
LIKE HEEHEEHEEHEEHEEHEHEHEEHEHEHE
SEZAIRI WON AND I LOST MY CEPAS CARD.
LIKE HEEHEEHEEHEE.

bestie that's why I'm here.

2009-12-25T23:05:00.003+08:00

C Am
I see you walking up the street
F
See you smiling oh so sweet
G
At me
C Am
And you couldn't help but laughed out loud
F
At everything we'd joke about
G
We don't have to say a word

Chorus:
F
Cos you know that you've got me
C
And I know that I've got you
Em G
We can turn hours into years
F
Cos you can count on me
C
And I can count on you
Em G
At any time, at any point of day
C
Bestie that's why I'm here
F C
Bestie that's why I'm here
F C
Ohh, bestie that's why I'm here

didn't intend to write one, but shaz was giving me a whole list of random chords and I hummed. got home and edited bla3, then tada!

ps. if I still had you.

btw. today I went to shaz's to train bla3, his mum baked pizzas :D then I left my mp3 there =.=

so tomorrow is it!

ahh, excited.

homework.

2009-12-24T13:34:00.001+08:00

how come I never do ah?

I also don't know.

(Y) ooh, ooh! (Y)

2009-12-23T16:47:00.003+08:00

I was digging up my vcds at home when I got bored. I watched Sepet for the 3rd/4th time but it was the first time that I really cried. Yes you grow up being more sensitive but I think I was so slow. And I realise how when I was younger I saw older people losing their loved ones while the other adults gave them such meaningful advice that I used to take for granted because I found them so cliche. I also heard about those scenarios too many times - the dramas on tv and the stories on the radio that came from them people. So when someone in the same generation as me (and even someone older) lost his/her loved one, I gave them the same cliche advice to move on. When I was younger, I thought losing someone you LOVE and then moving on would be less difficult, and I was so wrong. Because I've felt it now.

"I tried to write you a poem in Mandarin. I tried so hard but the more I did, my words became more and more meaningless. I grew panicky. But then, the panic goes away every time I see your face and hear your voice. I write poems because to me, they are my letters to God. There were many questions in them, and when I met you, I felt that I've found the answers. But I couldn't write them in words. God had answered me with a poetry. He gave me you. You are my poetry."

okay, jiwang lah beb chong gini macam.

HAHA okay so this was funny.

Orked: I like your hair (: where'd you get that?

Jason: mmm, bisexual hair salon.

Orked: errh, I think you mean unisex hair salon.

HAHAHAHAH.

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today I did bangs on my hair. I cut my fringe for the God knows what-th time this week. and I don't think I need rebonding, cos it curls the way I want it to :D at least for today.

had the musical rehearsal, and then teban, and then home. was raining heavily, and then lightly, and then sunny - all three in about an hour otw home? :O

oh yes, working with the others with the musical was totally fun. I gotta feeling we should do this often. heh, as if got time.

monster texted me urgently while I was still rehearsing in school.

(it doesn't sound good translated, I think)

TEXTS:

(12:22pm) monster: Balik kul brapa? Panaskan lauk.

(01:14pm) monster: Balik cepat2. Panaskan lauk lemak cili padi.

(02:06pm) sister: Syiba, balik tolong panaskan lauk.

(02:07pm) me: TAWU!!! Da 3 message daaa! >:[ bingit ah bingit.

(02:08pm) sister: Aku pon bingit.

CALL:

(02:20pm)

monster: Hello

me: Ye ye da dalam bas daa nak balik.

monster: Bukan, abang da balik, da panaskan lauk. Kay2 bye.

hai. pasal panaskan lauk pun kecoh satu family.

as I 'drove' past the school I figured something like a.. what's that called?

a 2010 spirit: that I'm gonna cherish the one year left in school. 3 years have passed and there were so many memories - the good and the bad.

cheh rubbish. next year's my Os.

TSK. ( this is one real BIG tsk)

adios amigos.

ps. I think my mouse is spoilt D:

WATCH TAUUU!

2009-12-22T16:59:00.002+08:00

this is szxoooooooooooooooo funny nak mampos.

if you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it.

2009-12-22T14:39:00.003+08:00

this was sooooooo sweet. he sang her 'permaisuri' (Y)
"adik nak kahwin orang cam gini lah" (referring to the dancer)

monster: *pengsan look*

hahaha!
this is ironical: my sister owns the camera and uses it more than I do. and she'd only learned to focus when I taught her that day (Y)

I'm in the mood of dancing :D

adios amigos.

friends.

2009-12-21T16:33:00.004+08:00

actually. my mp3 can go to hell (I have warranty anyway, but duper troublesome). I'm really really really sad. since morning, but this little thing called friends made me forget the stuffs that could have left me going emo all day.

morning was horrendous. bus rides without songs were totally dull.

I thought it would be okay once I get home. but it didn't DDDDD:

met up dancemates in school and talked loads of crap and was real happy for once :D

had a fun warm-up laughing here and there. then came lunch time @ teban market

and that was when I formed Salamakkau HAHAHA. it came out of nowhere and Fitri was lol-ing away as usual. and those little teeny weeny stuffs just cheered me up.

"OI! jangan main2 ehh. kite salamakkau" hahaha gangster lembik, *do the malay dance handflip*. aku lah chong :D

for at least half an hour, Amah, Fitri, Zie and I were gossiping about parents as we lazed around on the school hall floor.

how they want us to respect them when they themselves are like urgh.

Zie & I have the same plan to live with friends instead of family (bulan satu ni lah, tahun tak tawu bile HAHAHAHA.) can you imagine partying every night? life would be awesome (Y)

after lunch was mostly slacking time. had one round and then off home. *pants*

and then again, the world seemed soo quiet D:

idk why but every time I have damaged stuffs like contact lens or mp3,

the very first person Imma tell is my sister.

stupid ah? as if she can do anything like tht. she would even say "don't worry. you can buy any time" HAHAHAHHAA YEAH LIKE YOU ARE SOO RIGHT? :@

the sound of construction site on my mp3 is very annoying.

very very very.

the battery will die and it will soon keep quiet.

adios amigos.

ps. did you ask why? again and again, it reflects on your mindset.

:'(

2009-12-21T15:59:00.004+08:00

I'm friggin' sad and crying like nobody's business.

my mp3 :'(

my 452 songs.

my most loyal companion.

ohmygod whyyyyyyyyyy?

what an effing unlucky day.

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tmcpoauwnxrfyhawemi7r5t8934qmhd5r982y4rxmawjiodxrr98

3yr8w3hdmi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

with every of your inner thoughts, ask yourself why.

2009-12-20T20:39:00.003+08:00

OHMYGOD.

^^ Mr & Mrs awhhhsomeee. can you imagine how happy I was?

"I'm a BIG fan of you"

KC: oh, thank you :D

my insides went ARRRRRR, you know like a mad dog.

Saturday 191209 : It's a love story baby just sayyyy, yesss.

the auditions @ wanna'B cafe went fine.

okay not really.

I needed two conditions:

1) I'd prefer a big crowd of public to a panel of judges less than 2metres away. 2 of them were Azlin Ali & Hassan Salleh. imagine that, aduhhhh.

2) I need people to constantly smile at me so that I can smile back to the audience rather than letting my awful adrenaline rush swallow in my precious smiles.

okay so my everything was precisely shaking. the tips of my hair all the way to my voice box.

anyway.

DO COME AND SUPPORT NASYIBA & SHAZNI IN THE SEMI-FINALS IN KITA PUN ADA TALENT THIS SATURDAY @ SINGAPORE EXPO. details coming soon.

if you want to see me doing "OWWW, PERHAPS, PERHAPS, PERHAPS."

teng teng teng treng teng.!~

I want brother's cowboy hat *prays hard*

there are many other talents too, such as beatboxing (it was awesome!) I heard they use: the nose, the lips and the tongue. and acting, and percussion. ooh, yeah baby.

before that shaz tagged along to Kak Yati's wedding and coincidentally it was @ taman warisan.

it was actually quite a bad day (you can see me having a bad hair day. but oh wells, I still snapped a pic with KC :DDDD) and a bad weather (of course before I sang) LOL fish me.

he totally ate vegetarian nasi minyak X) and then we went off.

after the whole auditions thingy I went back to taman warisan to stay for the wedding dinner and it was TOTALLY gorgeous! sang Hazami's winter sonata and had Mama Ina & Kak Dayah woohing. they're cool ppl man (L)

Kak Dayah: if you don't sing yet I'm gonna make sure ALL the gates here are locked before you head home.

she's so adorable.

then hor got this mamat wink at me. after that monster kept on going: Mamat yang kenyit mate tu handsome tak??

=.= omyshomslorrygorypotpourri ! (did I actually remember that? :O)

there were many hot ppl as well. it was a circular 10-ppl table and there was this man sitting right opposite me. I told sister he looked a lot like remy ishak <3333 GAHHHHHH!

oh, and there was Akmal! my starstruck day man.

reached home right at midnight & bullied monster :D

Sunday, 201209: jalan2

it was my first time to City Square Mall. went there with Cik Nia and my monster. was searching for school shoes but I was a bit too fickle so ended up not getting any. the place isn't that bad, there's BK and LJS and this shop called BELLO. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.(!) according to Kamus Dewan third edition, the right spelling is beloh with the meaning: bodoh, dungu. (translated: stupid, stupid)

I've given my last warning to monster to not shout "ADIK GIRL!!!" in public. and today she didn't :D when she did a few days back, God it was so embarrassing.

had Briyani @ Tekka market and off home. in the train I'd always let monster smile & talk to herself cos she thinks I could hear her when I've got my earphones plugged into my ears. =.=

I drama a lot okay, as if I understood whatever she was saying.

okay cca open rehearsals coming. 3 days straight!

so dreadful!

oh don't talk about homework. I AM SO DEAD. :D but I'm happy that way.

supposedly not.

Thursday, 171209

this was the hangout with long-time-no-see Amirah and Nadhirah once Mirah came back from US. went to Keppel Bay for the 3rd time. jeng jeng jeng. penat dok kaki >.<

okay so mm-hmm I LOVE THE NIGHT AIR!

it's very cool at the 12th floor, baybeh.

adios amigos!

FINE.

2009-12-18T19:55:00.001+08:00

I don't like ppl who suddenly unlink me.

idk leh, i trifkjnlkmbppdwooohhs.

I think I'm having mood swings.

but hey, whatever, you know.

ke mana arah hendak ku tuju bila hatiku rindu padamu?

2009-12-18T01:57:00.002+08:00

I will be back.
this thing is dead anyway, somehow.

spongebob mood: weepy!
wala.

lalu airmata jatuh akhirnya. // benar ku mencintaimu tapi tak begini. (Y)

2009-12-15T17:30:00.005+08:00

HELLO! it's my first time using google chrome. weeehee very FAST but quite limited actions. btw. have you heard Hady Mirza's angkasa? (Y) to the power of infinite awesomeness. it's #1 on the ria charts btw :D yesterday KC was in tv btw btw :DD

from yestrday's bingit sey segment:

(translated fgs)

someone: I'm mad cos from sembawang to novena I didn't get a seat in the train!

KC: if you really wanna sit, take taxi laa, confirm got seat!

LOL. I love him so. anw!
songs for HCs (heartless creatures).

(Y) it's good to refer to assholes (Y)
and have you heard Anang's Separuh Jiwaku Pergi? it was dedicated to Kris Dayanti who played three wood (main kayu tiga) huahua. another song. sigh, sad siol. crazy woman she. like what's the problem with people these days. got nth to do, wanna kill time then break ppl's heart ah? stupid or stewpid? teeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeee. :@

had grocery-shopping with monster today @ sheng siong (all for youuuuuuuu~). idk why, I found it real fun. she very funny. one second she was nagging about the increasing price, the next second got one little girl with a whole head plaited like dayak walkd past and she went: EHH LAWA RAMBUT! :D ( EHH NICE HAIR!)
=.= if you could see the real transition in her expression, wah duper funny. anyway.
APPLAUSE!!! I touched my homework today and have completed 10 questions of tanjong katong girls' school's emath eoy paper 1.
sian, more to go bodoh.

anyway study with nadh, zs and bryan postponed to tmr.
and study with shalihin and the BUSTED friend also postponed.

so early in the morning he texted: KAMBENGGGG!. BRRH.
APAAA PUNYA NASIB INI GONDOL. X(

REMY ISHAK

2009-12-14T21:35:00.001+08:00

at first I preferred the sight of Fizz Fairuz.

heh I think I'm duper slow.

found and lost.

2009-12-14T20:41:00.002+08:00

today I had my very first practice.

I think I concentrate better when I sing to strangers :D

anyway went to Shaz's area and da da da.

I'm in love with Chachos BBQ Bonanza (Y)

Kinder Bueno? yeah, still. and Cadbury Crunchie (Y)(Y)

at the start I had voice cracking here there :/

but after we chilled and talked da da da, it went better.

walked to JP and came this mamat lembut with obvious foundation make-up on his face, he was doing a survey. skin texture nice plak tu. jealous aku.

anyway I long time no make-up hehehehhehhe.

initially I was heading home.

if brother never give me monthly allowance,

I would have gone home.

:B so I shopped at JP for puny stuffs.

that collectively cost bleh tahan maknye.

frankly, idk if I'm serious about this.

the competition. I'm trying to distract myself from things, but idk if this is what I really want cos sometimes I don't feel like myself. fuhlamak jiwe beb.

tkpe tkpe. growing up growing up.

hahaha! tahan hormones tu baa.

ade upin, ade ipin
ade tom, ade jgak jerry.
bile lah nak dapat sen
nak belik taylor swift platinum cd! :D

atee kate bwesst (Y)

tv3.com.my

2009-12-13T19:26:00.001+08:00

bored? sign up @ www.tv3.com.my and have an unlimited dosage of tv everyday!
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self-initiated ad.
*peace*

our title is omyshomslorrygorypotpourri

2009-12-12T16:51:00.006+08:00

"is my teeth yellow?"

my beloved. sometimes I wish you could talk.

jw & I never really talked then today he asked if I wanna buy bubblegums.
keehkeehkeeh random.

how come these days chicken rice sellers won't give soup unless you ask for it ah?
taik hidung melekat man business tak maju!
strangle blood. (direct translation)

today actually I slept at 0430hrs. I made fun of the blanket and turned it into a nice dress or as sister called sari. (Y)

until 12 noon again my guardian angel woke me up. if everyday like this, cool eaurh? then I got stuck onto some site on the net (sempat tgk video lagi) then I forgot tht monster was waiting for me to fetch her from the bus stop cos she was bringing heavy things. wah, kena nagggggg! GRRRRRRRH.

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ape maknenye? TKDE MAKNENYE PUN! :P

TONIGHT IMMA FIGHT TILL WE SEE THE SUNLIGHT.! ~!@#$%^&*()

ps. I'M LAZY TO DO A SINGLE SHIT. TATAS ^.- (cacat:O)

dreams.

2009-12-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

from yesterday's sunset till today's sunrise, I didn't get a of wink of sleep.
sister was awakened by my singing =.=
taylor taylor taylor. why?
Ria's organising a 'kita pun ada talent' competition.
(Y) along with sotong hopefully.

anyways. I only slept right at 6+am and had an awesome dream marathon.
according to sequence:

1. I told cikgu as tht I haven't watched our syf video, then she let me go to her desk but played some malay movie instead. I watched halfway cos Nadh was waiting for me outside the staff room. LOL as if.
then somehow I woke up a lil and didn't notice the time so I went back to sleep. so the first one was mimpi yang tkde maknenye.

2. I dreamt of you. again, after the last time I told you the same thing. and really, it was great. it was everything I've ever wanted. ade maknenye? it happened so many times already and I. idk what to do. but when I woke up, TING TING TING(!) it was an awesome exact 12 noon. I went back to sleep, seriously hoping for the same dream to come again and live in it like forever.

3. but I had something different. that I couldn't figure out what.

WHAT THE HELL~

even if I really know the rightest thing to do now,
would it save me?

save us.

fuck man fuck man.

2009-12-10T20:18:00.015+08:00

BLUE! :D

"FUCK CARLTON AH FUCK CARLTON!"

lol man.

after that, everyone went fuck man fuck man.

fuh, FUNNY SIOL THAT PART.

fullerton baby. AHHAHA

"handsome seyy"

ahah, atee, for you (L)

the good times:

taufiq, hidayat, qhay, shalihIN.

and this is what you get when taufiq blocks yat's face and yat pushes his head away. (Y)

IN, OUT!

LOL MAN LOL.

just looking at her photos can super make me laugh like non-stop. no kidding.

FUCK MAN, atee.

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!

fuck man.

sab's container previously filled with nuggets.

asyraf asyraf =.=

ni lagi satu.

I seriously couldn't stop laughing.

the blues just get blue-er.

I love her hour glass (Y)

of all, I love dora.

why?

she knows my secrets

and I know hers :D

\m/

atee: if you're given the chance to be Nasyiba's bf, would you want to? and why?

sha: no. too alim

biggest joke ever?

hahahhaha

sharing relationship dramas with girlfriends rocks, have you tried it?

that one, ^^ everyone reading someone's ex's text.

after that, you'd feel like you've let it out and hey, you're not the only one who kena cheat.

man, aku sayang ateeadora :D

my girls <3 :D

paparazzi konon.

the spams:

kart & sheep. chocolate scheep. hahah

cool arh?

wanna be on top?

chocolate scheep + dora = bff

fat #1

this is PICNIC.

fat #2

the outing was awexomee.

well though girls waited for more than 1 hr at clementi mrt, we killed time and talked crap.

then off to city hall to meet atee and syaffy and off to marina barrage.

indoor picnic-ed cos it rained. I hadn't eat nuts that time, and we almost called McDelivery, to marina barrage? heh?

but we enjoyed sab's nuggets and atee's pringles (LIKE, AGAIN, I predicted!) hahha.

"aku ade feeling atiqah bawak pringles"

then off to marina square for McD's :DDDDDDDDDDD!

then crap-talking lepak outside Marina Square and then was the best part of the day:

truth or dare + nyonya visit by the river.

during the truth or dare, which mostly consisted of digging out BGR secrets, asyraf predicted two break-ups. LOL. cos all the rest are single except two.

personally, I wish one would just happen for good.

cos I understand the urgh of clapping on one hand.

sigh.

I don't want Dora to sad sad :(

then in the middle of the game, one nyonya came to us asking about the maybank building across the river. suddenly we drew attention from many ppl cos they talked cock very loud.

thanks to asyraf. HAHA

"108th storey, you can take stairs or you yamakasi there"

"we love hong kong"

"yah, fuck carlton"

"fuck man"

and she seriously went

"FUCK CARLTON" repeatedly.

by tht time everyone was laughing their asses off!

wanted to take video, but memory card full D:

then I reached home at 10.15, tht was 15 mins late.

kena nag, but heck care don't care. CHEY?!

and oh, sony claimed she saw me (:

and seriously, if every day is spent with them girlfriends (plus guy friends),

I really don't think the girls need boyfriends or the boys need girlfriends.

LOL.

I mean, if we could spend time together always, LIFE WOULD BE HEAVENLY.

and I really miss malay lessons and recesses with them.

throwing ice, playing ali bom at hdb blocks.

until Kartina sulked cos she had to fucking find us who played tk agak2.

and joking abt air dari atas. :X

OHMYGOD, FUNNY SIOL.

truly, they are the best group of friends I've ever met.

(L)

next outing?

I'm thinking of exploring atee's area. pasir ris ^.^

ADIOS AMIGOS.

ps. I wish I could turn back time. :'(

idol.

2009-12-08T21:58:00.004+08:00

this time all three are superb :D ,
I cannot make up my mind!
but I know my Sezairi must must get through (L)
and the HSM thingy is so imitation.
okay go.

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Pernahkah engkau
Memendam secebis harapan
Pabila kemarau
Untuk tandangnya hujan?

Pernahkah engkau
Meniti hari yang tidak pasti
Penuh rindu, penuh sepi
Setiap detik yang dilalui?

Pernahkah engkau
Terhadap takdir, ragu-ragu
Mulanya menyayangi ulat bulu
Kemudian membenci kupu-kupu?

Pernahkah engkau
Berpegang teguh kesabaran
Namun nafas sesak
Mencari udara keredhaan?

Pernahkah engkau
Membuku keinginan kuat
Meski berlari di daratan berduri
Berenang di lautan api?

ya.
kerana cinta ;

please shut up if you don't care (:

2009-12-07T08:28:00.006+08:00

GGGGGGGGOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDD

MOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRRRNNNNNNNIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
irritating enough?
I woke up early today. cos in the first place I couldn't sleep well. hahha.
so I washed up and as early as 8am I was at shop n save to get diapers.
lol. so perhaps staying up was due to pms? I THINK MY PMS BLENDS IN WELL WITH MY DAILY MOODS. hahah!

well I'm supposedly gg to schl to get books today but I'm making my first-day menses as an excuse to get them tmr instead.
naughty eh baa? -ahmad

hahha he was the only one online in my friends list when I came online this morning.
OMG I'M SO PROUD I GOT UP EARLYYYYYYYYYYYY.
so hmm yest night I stayed up doing nothing. until about 4 then I went into my so-not-nice sleep. siblings all went to bed early(?) at 2am. so I camwhored a bit (see below) anddddd I layed in bed . folded my arms, layed it on my pillow, with my back facing the ceiling and staring into blank space.
thinking & thinking so hard when it gets me nowhere.
and listening carefully to song lyrics.
LOL, I still don't get how
"my tears run down like razor blades" - Secondhand Serenade's It's Over
I thought razor blades are for shaving or smth. someone explain?

oh, Gaga's songs totally grooooooooove meeee ;D

"sucka~!"
(OHEMGEE MY TONGUE SO SHINY~)

kpak bing bing~

eh, I think it's Balinese . heh heh heh.

Seha's right. I should rebond my fringe ^.^

(Y)

tu name nye feeeeeeeel.

believe it or not, I was bribed a new pair of sandals to sing.

lol.

Sunday, 061209

1. had a two-couple wedding @ ang mo kio. first time ^.^
I suddenly remembered how I used to hate to go to weddings when I was younger just bcos I tend not to know who to salam and in the end I salam everyone. lol
2. off to AMK Hub to shop. psst, there got many sales. then I found a pair of shoes I have there on sale - 50% discount. FUH, MAKE MY BLOOD BOIL ONLY.
3. bus-ed to adam road and ate nasi lemak :DDDDDDD got home tulang.
monster was unsure of which shop sells the best tulang so she asked this indian man
who was serving us drinks then he said: alamak I think you asked the wrong person ah. I first day working here. (cup topples and ice drops onto the tray)
hahaahhahahha cute.

once I reached home, I changed and choreographed lyrically to Lady Gaga's love game. sounds dirty ah? hahahah. but I like ^.^ ohmanisoundsick.
and in the meantime, Seha was baking honey corn flakes ..
Baa: you need help? *all sweaty*
Seha: *looks at the ingredients* yeahhh..
Baa: sure *wipes sweat with bare hands and reaches out*
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.

I ate a lot that day. :O
adios amigos! ((:
ps. sometimes all you need is a warm hug *baacen look*
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you've forgotten everything. how could you possibly?

Because I liked the view
And I thought you felt it too.

you should've said no.

2009-12-05T17:50:00.005+08:00

don't you think her performances are full of surprises? ^.^
eh, the mic didn't get spoilt meh? she was like singing in the rain lor.
raa, taylor swift! ^.^

but heh I don't like her live singing.
off-pitched, sometimes. D:
lol, idk why I care about her.
but when I hear, I feel as if I'm straining my voice.
haha MEAN!

remember a promise?

2009-12-04T21:26:00.002+08:00

031209, Thursday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZIEMAH :D

met Nadh up and Angela gave us the wrong address, we went searching for the alphabet after the number. -.-"

first movie I watched was mr bean's holiday. followed by devil wears prada.

after that, slacked. LOL didn't touch my books at all!

had fun in her sister's crib. ^.^ Jas's domokun has pubic hair.

freaking lol.

we managed to squeeze 14 ppl into her stuffy room hehehe nth better to do one.

got home and... had make-up fun :D

041209, Friday

Seha made Mee Bakso today.

I feel like puking meatballs.

I love them a lot so I thought I could take on a huge meatball binge.

now I feel meatball-bloated.

I 'bumped into' Wan today.

hahaha let fate do the job right.

had honeydew ice blended ^.^

then here I am :D

and Raa,

YOUR SHOWING ME PICS OF JB AND TALKING ABOUT JB AND EVRYTHING ARE NOT WORKING.

GIVE UP LA DEY. HAHAHAHA

do I have anything else to say?

nah, don't think so.

adios.

we look ahead.

2009-12-03T01:54:00.002+08:00

well that was my primary school motto that still sticks with me.

why?

Shazni says if I wanna have a child with beautiful eyes, marry a muslim turkish man. then no need to teach Islam. heh. and that guy ^^ is Imran Abbas. the most handsome turkish man I could find on google. LOL

melt siol.

btw fb says I'm giving birth at the age of 17. LOL. I loike.

HAHAH

I cannot sleep. time check - 1.58am. MJ12 just ended.

tmr going 2/2 '08 reunion.

have a GOOD time, everyone(:

oops, I made a boo-boo.

2009-12-02T15:24:00.008+08:00

hehehehello hello
your kentot bau telor.

had BK today ^.^ sis owed me.
someone so clever got 260 for psle cisbedah.

yesterday I tried sleeping with a smile on my face.
but I didn't wake up with it. :(

"when the rain comes we yearn for the sun. little do we know, a rainbow is on its way"

I had 2 dreams yest's yest night.
the first one was. heavenly.
the 2nd one was funny crap shiok.
HAHAHA.

adios amigos.
back to my daily dosage of Nur Kasih ^.^
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this is damnnnnn old heh. my 2nd dream was smth like this. but got Siti ^.^ LOL

when I see you smiling I go: OH, OH, OH! :D

and this is really impressive ^.^ I want a child like that!
fuh, grey eyes some more. and I think I heard Simon saying ohmygoat yeah?
lol

merciless.

2009-11-30T22:13:00.003+08:00

bleh tolong diam tak?
BINGIT AH BINGIT.

:'(

caught in a bad romance.

2009-11-30T21:33:00.008+08:00

hahha. stickman.

the stupendous seven? teehee.

I recognise that! *melts*

faizal faizal faizal

that was our final U-turn, right beside changi runway.

"EHH! MAINTAIN THE PACE"

"tired siaa"

then hor, got plane fly pass and Bryan went:

WELCOME TO SINGAPORE! -.-"

ehh, melt(ed) for a while. hee, A WHILE ONLY LA HOR.

I look dark D:

and then the fantastic four. !I mistook that for someone playing a floating piano.

& I think camera-shy people are annoying!

oh well. I was 1/2 hr late to meet Nadh, Angela, Ernest, Zhi Sheng, Bryan and David (psst, I tolded you, some people are gonna be late) KWANGKWANGKWANGZ. lucky nenek(my new nenek :D) woke me up, or else .. fuh.

I really cannot depend on alarms D:

then David was 1hr 10min late. oohshdgbdjfngbrrrrrr, hungry mungry, I got.

then had McD's (McFreak lah katekan) :DD and 7 ppl squeezed into one table. mwahahah

then started cycling for short distances cos Angela was recalling how to cycle and awesome shits, she managed to really cycle at the end of the day ^.^ with Ernest around.

while the 4 of us (ZS, Bryan, Nadh and me) went all the way to Changi. AWESOME CRAZY FUN. we passed the sec 3 campsite ^.^ and most of the time Bryan was moaning (fuh, lousy lah he) and eventually we left him behind cos he was the super slowest LOL babe. and at the end of the day he said he was sick -.-" nice. had a good time racing and all. ehh, I wasn't bad at all. kwang3.

trained home and everything and only now I feel my everything aching. when just now I was so proud I didn't feel muscle aches -.-"

for 2/2 '08 (a much fun-er class to be with), there will be movie and hmwork marathon over at jas's place this thursday.

and for title of the photo album on fb today, ahha(!) I JUST FELT LIKE BITCHING.

tsk. sigh.

tmr. I shall start homework. (LOL let's see)
and omeegoat, I overspent today D:

ps. I regret helping someone today, cos he didn't even drop a simple thank you for all of us.

baabye, cutiepie(not referring to anyone :B)

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Sometimes when I think about us I go:

SHIT MAN SHIT.
wasted.

ps. do you remember a promise?

sampai ku menutup mata.

2009-11-29T16:17:00.006+08:00

hallo hallo let's go loco.

Friday 271109

who the hell goes shopping on the first day of aidiladha?

*raises hand* ME!

psst, I got the senget baju ^.^

God, shopping with monster was really boring although she's my banker cos her taste is urgh, she almost wanted to wear the Jihan tudung out with me. yikes .

that night was terrible.

but honestly, I don't know who to blame.

people should learn to depend on themselves more than others, don't they?

and, when someone lends a helping hand, sincerely or not, don't be so bodoh sombong lah kan?

Saturday 281109

HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO ADELINE AKA IDIOT AKA PIGLET.

every year I keep remembering her birthday, why?

cos she keeps reminding me of her birthday, in the most stupid ways.

anyway I got chocolate stain in the morning from the chocolate waffle and covered it up with my tie (so I wore the tie like the whole day) and made myself look so super kwai. the open house wasn't that bad in the late morning and I had about 5/6 groups of parents and P6s. I talked :D OKAY. the last group was the one that I bragged most about the schl, I even gave the slightest detail like how windy the location is. HAHA. the tour was tiring actually, but fun considering I haven't been to the SAC for ages and when I was there I was impressed cos the place seemed FUN. got stage and mic *wink wink*

*drum rolls* I loved the band booth(:

first headed home without checking my things, I forgot to do 3 things:

1. return kain to dance store; 2. take books from locker; 3. get letter from general office.

so I went back to school with nadh and bla bla bla. humid, it was. and from the 51 bus stand at the interchange all the way to the escalator at the JE mrt, I was narrating to Nadh the last episode of Nur Kasih HAHA.

had 1/4 day of piggy sleep.

Sunday 291109

I went to the bookshop to get foolscap and a pen for hmwork today, after talking to Yao Xiang. I got jealous cos he's done with all math homework, what the shit.

I read the newspaper today and TING TING TING:

1st Jan 2010, 8pm-9.30pm there's Bagaikan Sakti @ esplanade concert hall. a collaboration of M. Nasir and Siti N. tickets are selling really fast D:

if only . :(

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sometimes, I find myself lousy, I'm afraid of giving comments. so when you hear me saying "no comments" it's not really no comments, but I have my own reasons to keep it to myself. :B

these politics involve hypocrites and you'll never know when they stab you in the back.

that's case #1.

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kalau kau nak menyetan ngan aku, menyetan lah. tapi tak perlu halang kawan-kawan aku dari jumpe aku. muke baik, prangai eish eish eish.

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Kau hujankan penghinaan
Aku renjis kesabaran
Aku curah pertanyaan
Adakah bahagia
Nanti akan menyingkir hiba?
Dalam ribut ada hina
Dalam tenang ada sabar
Dalam tangis sendirian
Berkemungkinankan bahagia
Nanti akan menyusur tiba

- Liza Hanim's Merawat Luka Yang Terpendam

Saat ku merindukan dirimu,
Jiwa meronta kau ku damba.
oh gerhanalah seluruh pancaindera.

Ku hilang dalam memori cinta,
Membakar seluruh jiwa raga.
Hanya kau untukku,
Kau tiada dua.
- Hazami's Sonata Musim Salji

erm, I think I'm back to writing these holidays.
nothing much serious though.

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Somehow I'm gonna survive
But perhaps I won't
Cos somehow I'm gonna fight
Though he pain is unknown

Somehow I'll make it through
Cos somehow I still have you
But till when, we don't know
And my heart just won't let go
(Somehow)

Today you're gonna like me
Tonight you're gonna miss me
Till the time comes
And you'll leave me behind
Cos today you're gonna want me
And make me feel so crazy
Then leave me all alone
Tomorrow
(Somehow)

What do people really know
When they say it's your heart you should follow
Somehow they never understand
When the beginning seems to be the end

Somehow you're gonna break me all the time
But perhaps it's gonna work
Cos somehow you're gonna be mine
And all the sorrows will be cleared ! (:

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If I'm gonna listen to everything that makes sense, I'm gonna be fickle. what shall I hold on to, to get back to you?

budak-budak besars' prom 231109

2009-11-26T17:55:00.005+08:00

we waited till the balloons face the right direction teehee ;]

omg I was thinking of making this my profile picture? LOL it wasn't even me.

the girl in the storybook.

kay doneeeeeeeeee!

our new malay dance member ;] teehee.

2009-11-26T17:26:00.007+08:00

nya nya nya >.< (mcm nak makan ini budak)

argh.

awwwwwww.

my favourite(((((;

GRRRH!

she is so adorable! and her name sounds smth like Farya or Farlya?

I have a folder on my com named cutemutes and it's full of her photos :D

tell me who shall I marry to get a kid as cute as that?

lol.

phew, like finally, since extended curriculum, now my table is cleared. kwangkwangkwangz.

3/4, cycling this monday?

jgn tak menjadi sudah!

EHH, besok raye!

ps. I'm tired of speaking nicely, dude.

2009-11-26T15:37:00.003+08:00

my roti kirai :D

this was long ago actually.
yumayyee sexayyee.

okay let's do a proper post -.-"

Friday 201109

in the morning we had geog demo class on impacts of tourism with Mdm Ros. ZS was the time-keeper and I was the chairman of the debate. it got boring after some time and just in time, Daniel was the last speaker.
"so.. our positive impacts are better than your negative impacts what. so we win lor"
and the explanation was witty.
okay, that was fun #1.
fun #2? HAHA. they bought a farewell cake to bid farewell to David who's migrating to Aussie next year but rather fortunately, HEHE he didn't come and I free-load(ed) a slice.
so next year, 4/4 will be odd-numbered D:
then as Nadh was saying, it was quite a funny unlucky day cos I literally sat at the study corner near the staff room without checking and splash! HAHAHA. I sat on a puddle of water. imagine that one.
next, I was talking to Nadh and maintaining eye contact so I didn't watch where I was walking and I got my knee bruised.
stewpid eh?

that day too, I saw someone at the traffic light actually holding and using a laptop. strange, but life's like that sometimes?

is cyberlove and love at first sight really sensible? I couldn't believe they hadn't met ever, and have been talking since idk when.

Saturday 211109
I think I totally slacked that day hehe :B
but I went out for a while.
just a trip to clementi central but bumped into 4 ex-peitongers. cool ^.^
and got myself something lime green, I loike.

Sunday 221109
another boring day, I think, cos I can't remember.

Monday 231109
was craving for McD's. anyway off to Amara Hotel at 4pm and bla bla bla. gained experience ahahha. they played with helium gas cos helium gas + voicebox = chipmunk talk.
hilarious. it was awesome to get free food which the seniors had to pay for ^.^ HEHE.
and the Pepsi gave me a strange feeling, I think they added smth to it. heh seriously.
got home with the rest, with a heart-shaped helium balloon-ring tied to my finger ^.^ walked home at midnight alone. triple ^.^ness. was that the last time seeing all the familiar faces before they leave? hmph.

Tuesday 241109
heh. ate outside, then got home and slacked. seriously, I slacked a lot. I can't believe that.

Wednesday 251109
met beruks and off to send her to the zoo. LOL sounds real.
got home and slept (hehe, like you predicted).
and had dinner @ Mr Prata.

Thursday 261109
I took 154 to school after so long. and as I walked to school I remembered how I used to walk very slowly there so I could kill time and reach the nearby bus stop right in time to see you alight there.
had dance in the morning. set up the malay dance booth for school open house HEHE, the booth turned out not bad, I got quite happy. (yeah, I'm happy for little little stuff eh?) and hey, we've got a new malay dance member? surprised? HEHE. she is sooooooooooooo CUTEskdghisnfsjNAKMAMPOSsfnsjkdfnpokafkm. GRRH. *tarik the seluar front back front back and walk*
then off to chop ah chai with Marsha and Nadh :D ate karipap daginggg! and off home. hehe, today I was a candle princess (translated version).

I've just remembered when I was young, I used to have theories that you get blind when you cry too much (inspired by Kassim Selamat) and you get dumb when you talk too much. LOL. sensible, somehow right?

okay this is awfully random but I'm thinking of doing animal conservation when I grow up(~)
(Y)? can work with WWF or ape eh? SPCA hahaah.
padahal, tengok Seha's paperwork nak muntah. nak masuk U? hmph.
that was when I came up with this:
I love animals, but not those like you.
:S

will be uploading the prom pics and all soon.
(as if it was my prom eh?)HEHE.

sayonara!
mooo-ahhh.

here are the vids ;]

"I play the drums"

"NO PORK NO LARD" ?? eyh, doesn't mean halal kan? >.<

HELL-O.

2009-11-25T13:42:00.004+08:00

hmph.

today phyl had total fun waiting for me in the morning and bla bla bla.
mbam mbam :P

sadly, I'm getting lazier and lazier to entertain my blog.
movie marathon better ;]

yest was paranormal activity, 2012 and Harold and Kumar.
tgether with my brother who was being irritating narrating the story with his
"hahhh... TU LAH DIE PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!"
-.-"

anyway that night was fun actually.
Haha made pancakes while Monster didn't nag much.
well that night, like some other nights
we made noise in bed LOL. okay no dirty2 hor.
cat fight with Haha!

I've been browsing through the calendar.
hmmmmmm. don't know wth was tht for?
me too. just unsure.

well 201109 0036hrs was HELL.
that was when I started.
haw, truck. haw, fuck.

Baa: you home?
Haha: U home interior design?

-.-" prepaid, fgs. still can waste my prepaid.

I'm seriously bored.
school open house this saturday some more!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. time fly quick3.

ohmygod. grrh!

let's just wait until my heart feels like coming back here blogging.

today's macam paham quote:
feelings come and go,
but some come, and never go.
true? not?

adios amigos!

rather not live.

2009-11-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

believe it or not,
I really really need you.

YEAH, FUCK IT.
I'm really confused
cos so what if I love you?

heyho?

2009-11-22T15:39:00.004+08:00

got this from sashabashir.blogspot.com
HEHE I adore her.
and this, is Bali. :B :B okay sawan.

everyone seems to be going off. :(
booooooooooo I'm sad, you happy?
eh, aku sad aku nye psl ah hehe.

EEEEEEEE life sucks.
okay so basically I'm at home doing nothing.
and I'm oh so bored, oh God.
really :'(
everyone's going out,
ohmygod I want too
I want ice-skating D:
I want cycling again D:

I wish I were one of those budak budak besars :X

bye *whines*

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I was watching The Lizzie Mcguire Movie on ch 5 when I realised how fast time flies and how being preoccupied with so many stuffs made me forget what I used to love.

I loved the Lizzie Mcguire shows!

sabrina got me one of their comics for my birthday

and seha took me out for the movie.

and I forgot?

oh, dumbshits.

anyway.

will someone recommend a movie to watch on youtube? before monster storms out of the room?

talking about storms HEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHEEHHEHEHEHHE I WAS SOOOOO HAPPY malay dance came in 1st for best practice!

don't ask me wth is that, idk how to describe.

I was so happy that I almost stood up though I wasn't supposed to.

hehhhhhee. and Nadh was being tak berhati perut langsung cos she gave me those blank looks everytime I grin and smile and AHHHHH all of a sudden.

aiyohhhh tht lady.

how was it related to storms? well our presentation title was DANCING UP A STORM.

fuyoh fuyoh, kan kan kan?

:B

anyway I can't wait for March 2009.

I see it coming, do you? ^.^

HEHEHE.

whoots, I'm lazy to add colours.
since you guys already have colours in your life la kan.
okay diam.
I want satay D:
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oh dear.
I FVCKING MISS YOU KNN ZCB BERUKS.
:'( I'm such a coward.

LAZY LAZY LAZY.

2009-11-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

I have loads to blog about actually, I even jot them down on my phone but since there's smth cool on tv, I'm plain lazy to do so :D

SOME MORE HAH I tell you, wah makan hati you know.
some people asked me to update soon.
I've just checked her blog and she herself hasn't updated hers.
speak for yourself :P
hahah custard. dasar beruks!

toodles!
mwah!

FIZZ FAIRUZ <3

2009-11-19T21:30:00.002+08:00

I've been addicted to Nur Kasih on tv3 every idk wht day, 7.30pm - 8pm. :D
got fizz fairuz and he totally totally totally reminds me of someone from the past.
ooh, lelaki melayu terakhir. Seha said he looks super mat johor. but I like. LOL. no he's umphhh.

hahah this one very cute :D

life is crazy siao gila.

2009-11-19T20:25:00.005+08:00

HAHA. that one my trademark ehhs ^.^

I cut someone's face cos she was doing something super siao. AHAHAH!

"london weight management" :B

@ .. Raffles City eh?

Wednesday, 181109

that day was awesomeeeee to the power of jengjengjeng.

hahaha.

cycled at ecp with Raa, Phyl, Nadh and Mirah :D and then off to idk where, YMCA tk sampai eh Nadh? LOL big deal. then Marina Sq, and then home. oh, I saw Li Cheng cycling there too. somehow, I love east coast park a lot :D and cycling much lots. I definitely am gonna cycle there again :D, wanna bet? come follow :D and I wanna fly kite, still.

ohmygoats Beruk you're super lousy mousy to the power of eighty-three (ok random).

that evening was a little emo, .
why?

ask that evening lah!

HAHAHA ;]

but have you ever thought of giving up everything at the most random times of your life?

have you ever reminisced this whole life you once had that is now all gone?

have you ever gotten sick of having to leave things behind all the time?

have you ever lost your guts to do something you've been hoping for and then feel like you've wasted almost half of your life?

you know what's the displayed note on my phone? HAHAH, PARANOIA KILLS.

:B period.

oh yes,

one blister here,

one there,

another one here,

and 2 there,

one right here,

the other one there,

and a teeny weeny one here.

8 BLISTERSSSSSSSS! GRR GRR GRR.

Thursday, 191109

Happy 15th birthday to Mamat JM.

he's on camp though. kalau tk, da kene rembat. LOL mcm phm.

anyway today I woke up late and everything and meeting with Cikgu and Nadh was cancelled so I helped to get Abg his towel and I walked all the way to clementi fire station like old times, when ptps holding area was still there. and I realised I walked a longer way cos along the way there were less blocks of flat and there was just a stretch of field with different shades of green (probably written dotdotdot hahah, do you remember?)

wow I feel like I'm practising descriptive essay. LMAO.

then I took bus to clementi central to get epok2 :B ahhhh yums booms.

okay lol monster is talking to herself on the phone cos the operator talking like lidah 'omputeh' (orang putih) X)

anyways. I got home and rested and then..

*knock knock* Assalamualaikum..

monster's long-lost friend, Cik Ita, came.

the last time she came was dunno how many years ago, I was still at least pri 3. I remember at the time we were damn close cos she'd stay over and we'd hold her back from going for work. hahah and I was still sooo young.

we talked and all. then monster and I went to central and PSSSSSSSSSST, I had cempedak goreng ^.^ and oh beruk, she agreed on making roti kirai this weekend double yay-ness :D

and psst, I know I velly fat. FAT = Fit And Trim

hahahha go buy kerepek I teramats merepek.

oh, ape tu, mepek pepeks ar. *jeling ahahah

tmr is Demo Class with Mdm Ros followed by Best Practice. demo class? zs will be the time-keeper and I'll be the chairman of the debate. I miss piggy.

"IMY :D"

- ...

"oh sorry sorry typo error. HAHAH"

hahah busted custard pig stickman and everything mean.

and then Nadh and I are presenting for best practice - confirm get those stage fright again. oh dear .

>.<

oh tidaaaaaaaaaaak!

BUABYEZ!

hahaha. wakakaka. huahuahua.

2009-11-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

I think my blog too emo already. I read I cannot tahan.

hahahaha

the guitar'd just dropped from its handle and one part broke into 2!
baru tuari ingat nak jam. amek kau.

today Macam2 Aznil made me laugh :D

and monster took me out for little shopping and I was wearing the akar mekar shirt and someone from akar mekar noticed me and gave me a look. I knew his name. forget already.

I feel like puking D:

oh yes! Fauzi Ravi! I remember!

and oh yes, I saw Ismahairie on tv :DDDDDDDDD

let's talk abt Fisherman's Friend.
I take them often and these are ppl's opinions on it:
1. you know why the name is fisherman's friend? cos fishermen have a lot of phlegm. totally insensible hahaha
2. ehhh I don't want! smells fishy.

*shakes head*

the other day I read the newspaper from the back, lol idk, cos I was bored.
and cos I was bored and my phone was sooooo bloody quiet I dialled my own number and heard my ringtone and then I got high :D

the other day I dreamt of a wilt rose.

then sha told me to forget the future and remember the past.
LOL.

okay nights!

you look but you don't see. you hear but you don't listen.

2009-11-17T12:00:00.004+08:00

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shall I?
I got so much advice but I don't know which one to take.
but I can list down everything that's impossible.
we're an impossible case?/.
am I asking or telling?
and then again, what are we gonna do?
don't tell me I gotta be strong cos
that was enough.
and then again, what are you gonna do?
I am complicated and so are you.
I don't read between lines and you need someone else to do so.
but I told you, I will be right here waiting.
and then again, what are you gonna do?
I'm not wonderwoman.
so what am I supposed to do?
even if I were, even if I had the strength to fight,
what are you gonna do?

ignore, if everything here is true.

cos when you're 15, ...

2009-11-16T16:11:00.019+08:00

HELLO long time no update !
I'll start with 151109.
oh yes. I'm longing to go fly kite :D
cute? *tekak loya* hahaha :D

ni lagi. hahah okay but this is real cute. lol beb.

dia datang~

this was LOL.

cikgu: NADHIRAH..

nadh: *smiling for cam* ye? (senyum maintain dok hahahah)

this boy is soooo cute he go kick his scooter hahah

the early birds.

I was superwoman in the morning cos I walked from clementi west st 2 sheng siong all the way to wcp bringing 6 litres of water and got muscle ache today but still they weren't enough. everyone was late including me HOHO. 8am meet but 7.30am I was in bed shaking legs. okay not really but the night before I reached home at midnight cos I drank naughty G with ashraf. LOL kidding. he arh, no need naughty G so naughty already, ade hati nak fullerton hotel. so yeah was real tired. anyway 151109 eh. farewell party went great. thanks to kakitangankepaleskus. after that chilled with carrot and broccoli and teddy and miera at mac, blew balloons and the 20-cent coin die2 didn't want us to go play flying fox D:

then off to clem west to meet acap. okay phew. idk how to phrase it but I was insane, you can call me a slut after 1815hrs.

we don't know how it happened.

okay then reached home and uploaded pics and slept like a pig.

let's start on 141109.
met up kakitangankepaleskus (syqah, marsha, su, nadh) at wcp and bla bla bla in the morning and oh, I so couldn't resist the temptation of double chocolate frappe for the 2nd time since I had cough. heh :B bumped into Qhay (fate btul) at wcp Mac though we were gonna meet in the afternoon. so there were 8 of us : me, Atee, Syafiqah, Ashhhhrafff, Shalihin, Qhayreel, Afiq and Syazwan.

and one thing I learned about Wan is, he totally convinces us with things like "okay kul 2 jangan lambat tau" but in the end he's always the last one to reach.

Sha: eh, call Wan.

Ashraf: *dials 1* nah.

he's lame funny lame funny lame funny idk which one.

HAHAA.

dinner at funan mac.

oh aku sungguh bertuah kan?

dengar2 sweet eh ashraf suap mcflurry atiqah belik? HAHAHA

I want a tattoo of this hahha :D

eh, hot. *tekak loya*

he was desperately asking for candids. hahah

D: fat with tiang.

HAHA what an insult eh atiqah? (his bent knees)

okay kekek siot.

Wan aka tiang. can compare his body to the tree behind?

okay the following 3 pics below crack me up:

HAHAHAHA ashraf: gambar lawa2, syazwan kat blakang garuk kpale.

and stupid, hahah all 3 pics have tht. kutu babi hahaha

the pasir war.

ashraf ashraf ashraf. (tbc later)

they collected money for 20+ bucks ball just for one day use. -.-"

beachy, bitchy? hahaha

atee, can I say smth, babe? lol scroll down.

okay jangan ZOOM eh. hahaha

atiqahku pretty! :D

I've just realised, our batch malay guys all not bad eh? hahaha

kau potong rambut shoulder length da mcm DORA THE EXPLORER, beylo. hahahah

THIS IS SO MY FAVOURITE.

my kakitangankepales.

okay let's talk about Amirul Ashraf Zainudin(?).

hahaha. he got no com so can talk all I want :B

ASHRAF ASHRAF ASHRAFFF.

AA: imagine 10 sharks surrounding you in the middle of the sea. what would you do?

me: sink?

AA: *gives diao look as usual* sharks cannot swim eh dngar2? hahah stop imagining.

he's goddamn lame but I like. hahaha

but he's funny lame sick and sick lame funny.

me: what did Tyra Banks say to the mountaineer?

AA: climb my mountain?

me: *cracks up* sick. wanna be on top?

and behind fullerton hotel, we both sat and talked about family etc. I was bitching about monster and he played the Your Mother song in public. and carried on with nasyid like Thanks To Allah and everything. yes, in the middle of the city. oh yea, we were sitting right next to the ten dares ppl ^.^ I couldn't upload the vid of him haha sry raa. anyway took 51 with him and got home at 12 midnight. got home and yelled: I'M DEAD RIGHT? I KNOW.

but of course I was alive lah. anyway. smth about that night. hahah, only God and Atiqah baby knows (: unexpected.

no I'm not in love. just admiring someone, see, if I like, I say okay. not like the USA chocolate case. :P

then the sicko dedicated I Wanna Fuck You -.-" and then All I Want.

ashraf ashraf ashraf. okay I like that name.

okay period.

now let's start talking about mothers.

the stupidest thing one can ever do is to complain to teachers about their children's behaviour. cos by doing that they're insulting themselves when it should be the other way round, that is teachers complaining to mothers. ashraf made me realise that. LOL okay diam.

one more stupid thing is threatening to throw away their children's stuffs, ESPECIALLY school books. they are old and supposedly wise and matured people who are expected to THINK before they SPEAK. eventually, they are the ones at loss cos if we're gonna say "my mum threw away my books", limit2 teachers would send you for counselling (doesn't apply to me though) but they know you know, your mother needs more counselling.

gosh I hope a topic like this comes out in O levels for english compo HAHA.

anyway the thing is. I'm waiting for the right time to make her realise things. I'll ask her why she forced us to stay with her back then, and now we're such a pain in the ass. I'll ask her why she didn't give up on us though we're creating trouble every now and then. why she wouldn't let us run away though she nags every day. why she never got tired. don't say she doesn't have a choice. cos I had a father. I have.

and yes, just recently I thought of something that I never thought of before. I CAN THINK NOW. and what I truly think is that I'd have lived a better life if I hadn't lied to the judge that I wanted to be with him.

I'm 15. and the fugly ridiculous thing is I still can't control my tears. I've yet to have wings to fly. and have night life, LOL like ashraf said. I've never ran away, like what ashraf suggests.

okay I totally didn't mean it when I said period.

do you wanna hear other stories that tickle me?

hahaha. we were talking about peitong BGRs and it was so cute. I think peitongers are scandalous.

1. they claimed that I was once officially with Sha. I really don't remember gg on with him though, but I remember breaking up on 170906. LOL, sad but cute. hahahah

2. and one stupiddddd thing was atee claimed I was helping her out with Sha and eventually I ended up with him. LOL ZOMG. but one good thing was in ptps I only went on with Sha((: then he went for chinese girls like (LOL) that emo bleeding mascara girl. okay shut up baa HAHA.

3. I really thought someone and someone were an ideal couple. they lasted in pri schl and even got into the same sec schl, but things change la eh.

4. kay all of them here are friends except her ex-boyfriend. and it's a girl's story. her girl friend, A, said she thinks a guy friend, B, likes her. she was amazed actually, she didn't realise anything but she knows it might not be true. but before that she knew there were smth B and another guy, C, were keeping from her when they all talked during their meal. but she adores C. at the same time, another guy, D, was waiting for her. but she asked D to stop cos people said he's smth smth. one night she thinks she broke D's heart cos she saw his eyes as he glanced at her and C. the next day, she met C and jengjengjeng. then she got home and cried cos she missed her ex-boyfriend.

complicated? haha yeah.

:X atee, I don't even know if you would understand the story. hah

okay you know what time is it?

10.14pm. that's how long I've been updating.

SO PHYL AND AHMAD BETTER BE GRATEFUL. HAHA

don't miss me too much!

cycling with Raa, Mirah, Nadh and Fil this wednesday (: burn, fats, burn.

ps. no colours, I very lazy. actually some parts got colour. hahahahhaha *wink wink*

BUABYEZ. <3
and OH, I DON'T CARE IF SOMEONE SOMEONE KNOWS THAT I FEEL LIKE RUNNING AWAY. I do realise your tactic was to make monster give up on you. idk if that's what I'm working on.

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FOR MONKEY LOVERS. sayang monyets forever (: I want a trained orangutan as a pet, boleh?

if monkeys can babysit a human baby, why shall abortion continue? ahah, I'm being mcm paham eh but true what. and I commented on this vid cos I really couldn't believe the world out there is so racist D:

last but not least, I love Pingu. snup nuppp! hahha I think I've picked up Pingunese after Monkeynese.

once and for all.

2009-11-11T15:31:00.004+08:00

when you make me realise and believe that what I feel is also what you feel;

I seem real nonchalant towards things

and try to brush it off as much as I can all the time

but when the lights go off

alone with all that's left - memories of you and me,

it hits me so hard

I'd cry you a river.

and for the last time

I'll prove to you everything that I felt was real.

and after that don't you ever forget that moment.

cos I think you've forgotten how much you meant to me.

I'll hold you tight like I'll never see you again.

my H-E-A-R-T.

2009-11-11T00:28:00.003+08:00

oh it makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile~

I love tht red cardigan which I only wear at home during the rainy season hehe :B
lawa kan raa kan? totally booms!

Happy birthday to Marsha.
AKU DEMAM :(

saturday, sentosa with kudakeps maybe.
raa go gym early yeah?
then sunday is farewell party
Imma slaughter some people .

just now I commented on the wrong atiqah's fb.
WAHHH PAISEY HAHAHAHAH.

should I go to school today?
I cannot make up my mind.
I'm lazy to go clinic cos it means waking up early and dragging my heavy head to the doctor. wah alone some more D:

today was malay.
paper 1 was not bad but I didn't get to read my compo back, which I thought was super drama. LOL.
then I took pills and gt ultra sleepy during paper 2 and it was super slack cos I had one solid hour to finish bhgian c (chey action siol action siol). then the teacher go overturn my ezlink card and my pic was so disturbing so in the middle of the paper I turned it back.

my temperature seriously fluctuates.
oh one random fact: carbonated coke + salt = non-carbonated coke.
I discovered that when monster put salt into my coke cos I was begging her for coke cos I was sick. then no more gas D:
salty some more. hahah

do you know that turtles can literally cry?

dada!

ps. you just feel like you feel it, but you don't really feel it, you know.
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if you think that I'm an opportunist, think again.

hear the screams.

2009-11-09T21:22:00.004+08:00

Nasyiba Sahari is the one with the white hairband very near the left at the start .
WAHAHAHHA omg I miss them:(((

my fav is the 2nd chorus we all run in circles oooh <3

different, we both are, from then.

2009-11-09T19:59:00.006+08:00

today I had Mdm Hanita's lesson with a few other seniors taking the same paper and she's sooooooooooooooooooooooo cute :D

then physics, I find Mr Koh very drama but he's not bad at teaching, and may be teaching us next year :O

(:

after tht was normal Math Math Math Math.

I'm so hopeless.

then went home ramai2 with teman2kus and thanks to Ahmad and Wan I managed to kill time.

tomorrow's Malay O level. OMG OMG OMG

I feel so cool I'm taking it. psst, da besar lah siol.

I feel sick, my breath is very warm or I'm such a good heat radiator.
*coughs*
I walked in the rain today listening to straight through my heart and still I felt cool ^.^
everyone was looking LOL.

today's quote will be

I don't care :D

"I don't know, I concentrate on myself, I don't know"

LOLs.
this really booms >> ris low is back.

OK BELAJAR, TEMAN2.

"they want me to donate my unused clothes to charity who are starving but I'm not donating cos those who can fit into my clothes can't be starving"
XB

ps. I hate people. mwahahaha.

seperti yang anda lihat, saya jiwang malam ini.
LOL.
you'll never see me cry.

hey :B

melayu.

2009-11-08T16:17:00.003+08:00

velly keeyot.
velly funny.
ditujukan untuk mereka yang ber's'kan rosak. hehe :B

<3 beego :D

hahha I sang this with Nadh, this song is so true eh.

lovely.

2009-11-08T13:48:00.005+08:00

the official video is very sad go watch :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9XShfy51DP0

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn't feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I'd be wishing you were here
To be everything that I'd been looking for

I don't wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
'Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me
Love me like you'll never see me again

Oh Oh Ohhhhh

How many really know what love is?
Millions never will
Do you know until you lose it?
That it's everything that we are looking for
When I wake up in the morning
You're beside me I'm so thankful that I found
Everything that I been looking for

and fgs Raa, Beyonce is a singer and she's NOT yours :D
she's amazing.
MWAH.

and qhayreel shared this, catchy song (:

now who's gonna love you like I do?

you belong with me.

2009-11-07T14:51:00.005+08:00

"sorry about my soundman. technical fault" hahahahahahah!

we won the turn over a new leaf game ;DD

my ass is so ASS.

today I have guests from KL.

I totally am missing everything we all did over the two days. ):
it was one of those AWHSOME performances that ironically took a short period of time for rehearsals.

I love that life. don't take it away, please :'(

don't ask me what happened to my contact lenses :(((((((( GRRRRRRR.

today I have a big problem.

something that I overlooked before this uhmygoat cocked up sia. :((((((((

everyone's busy that no one remembered :(((((((

I was so fucked up that when Nadh asked me about smth regarding it I went:

EHH TAK TAWU AKU NAK PENGSAN ARH.

hahahaha.

and I think I totally suck at setting my priorities.

I was looking forward to the holidays before this, I could picture it so very well. cos I had you.

in my heart I had the desire and I dreamt of joining something but my lack of confidence and the thought of having to part from you held me back so I didn't give it a try. now I'm full of regrets.

I'm the one at loss. not your fault though.

ahem.

that mamat is your boyfriend? hahha, come tell me about it again in 4 months. *kening up up*

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if you could see that I'm the one who understands you

been here all along so why can't you see?

you belong with me~

standing by or waiting at the back door

all this time how could you not know baby?

you belong with me~

YOU BELONG WITH ME LAH OI!

friends booms.

2009-11-06T23:53:00.007+08:00

that is balanced and not senget you see. (: I think I velly clever. LOL.

era (:

muaHAHAHA.

the rewang dinner, Jihan chose to sit right in the middle of the circle -.-"

KYUNG.

Kiiqa !

Rui Ting Tong the Bell. <3

aduh Jihan !

<33

window-uh-shopping.

NOTE: this is gonna be a long post cos it's over 2 days, HEHE I post like every day manxx.

Thursday, 051109

1. Math lesson onwards, I started thinking on inventing a square-based umbrella which I tried visualizing in my head. then I drew it out in the bus otw to JP and let the Math genius, Amirah see((: possible, so if you see an umbrella shop with a square-based umbrella then it's totally my invention, hahah ok lame. anyway I discovered that a normal umbrella is an octagon, not circle. puny little things we don't observe eh?

2. that day, I lost 2 eyelashes. I wanna buy fake eyelashes arh, hahaha. mmm someone miss me? kwang3.

3. cos Math lesson was extended by 15 mins, Ridhwan walked past the class and shouted "LET'S GO HOME, BYE!" then Mr Leong said "who's that idiot arh?" HAHAHAHA.

4. saw Ezzul at the canteen and he went "pulling effect!" hahahahaha. okay pals, if a teacher asks you how is a migraine like, you better remember 'pulling effect'. -.-"

5. went to JP with Amirah and Nadhirah and then Amirah tried the senget baju at pepper plus which I recommended (: very coooool leh. I <3>

6. I super hate parents who scold their children in public. it totally reflects on how stupid the parents are. stupid parents nowadays. ahem, speaking from experience as well.

7. Projek E-Buku 2008 will be resumed :DD I'm excited again. it's gonna be booms.

8. the weather was real good for atas nama cinta (:

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Friday, 061109

1. I slept through the whole night without setting my alarm and cos my guardian angel is superb, I woke up at 6.18am (I was super lucky, can?) and two mins later I remembered I had to be in schl before 7am so I jumped out of bed and stuff things in and out of my bag and chao-ed.

2. school marketing? I think it was the last time for me :( AHEM, next year SEC 4 dok.

tkpe, 3 years straight dokzx.

3. AHEM, someone gets to help out in the seniors' prom :D

4. teacher say, if you can get A1 for hml, you can do the malay paper this tuesday with both eyes closed. LOL. you go kedai you buy kerepek, you know you velly merepek? hahahaha.

5. you know it's really disappointing if you expect to work well with someone and there's an expectation on how much dedication someone should give, but eventually tht someone just ditches it? I needed your help and even, the least you could do was to inform me you're not done with it. wahhhh.

6. it was really the first time I had 2 performances in one day!

7. I'm listening to MJ12 then he shared this song that's called the suicide song cos many people listened to it while watching the writer's photo then they committed suicide and the song is damn scary >.<

okay BYE! MWAH!

ps. I've tried every remedy but nothing seems to work for me.

one of my favourites(:
although my prince not coming lah eh hahah munkayee listens you know!

2009-11-04T16:09:00.012+08:00

was hungry yesterday night. I am always hungry at night but not in the day. that part I really don't know why.

so Seha made pancakes and a bit too much so I came up with that ^^
I think I'm sick hahahaha.

Maksim Mrvica is coming to Singapore you know . heh dream big big wait long long.

anyway actually geog lesson rocked today, hahha some day Singapore's tourism slogan will no longer be 'uniquely singapore' but 'booms!' or 'OI ! singapore LAH!' Ezzul is sooo funny.
and Mdm Ros shared her pics with us :D she can be very cute at times.

today I bumped into Kah Leong, Vivian, Qiu Ying and Amirah at clementi otw home and then Ruzainah. she lives really really near me, I didn't know that -.-"
wasn't that bad after all hehe :B I feel foolish.

omg monster is soooooooo(!) annoying :/
same thing every.single.day.
yeah, everything I do is never good enough.
gth.

and I also saw some ptps teachers who've been teaching since idk when, for sooo long I remember this teacher. her name is Mrs Atma Singh and back then when she went bonkers she would call us stupid and we were just puny little children aged 8. then in the morning when I got morning chills running down my legs, I shook them a lot and she yelled at me: STOP SHAKING!
o.O

ok so random.

haix. other people holidays start already lei.
I need a break from everything. impossible isn't it.

hey. do you think I'm a coward?
like I've been having 2nd and 3rd and 4th (and so on) thoughts about approaching her. I've been longing to hammer her head (wakakaka mcm paham) ok tahan baa. sabar.

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idk what you want from me but whatever it is, I'm sure you knew some time ago that I can't give it to you. I mean, realistically. everyone comes and goes.
what we have is just a friendship that doesn't necessarily bring happiness all the time. I come to you when you need help and you come to me when I need help. but our lives limit the time we have and I thought you're a friend who would understand.

it's okay. I mean REALISTICALLY(again), everyone's leaving.
and I'm fine.
I know I can't be there with you all the time. and I warned you before, but you insisted on staying, remember?
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oh I like this :)

percayalah padaku
meski di gelap malam,
kamu ngga' sendirian!
dan semua bintang
yang ku tinggalkan
temani kau sampai akhir malam!
na na na na ~

YLDC; jakuns!

2009-11-03T22:23:00.003+08:00

it's the first time I upload my video on youtube heheh :B
nenek super canggih~

well today I was one hour late for dance rehearsal cos I was pretty unsure of where to alight and then Kiiqa entertained me while I waited for her at the bus stop. HAHA she went to UCC instead of CCAB and got super duper paisey she kept on nagging about how stupid the location is. chocolate ! for me every time she nags ;)

she got soooo panicked she texted me on her whereabouts thrice:
1. clementi road
2. ngee ann poly there
3. nanyang girls' high school

phew. very hard to calm her down hahahaha.

then we danced and danced and completed the whole song in 3 hours using some old choreo from camp and the coolest thing is we're using STRAIGHT THROUGH MY HEART~
it's a mass dance aka mess dance for me wahahaha, with 26 dancers out of 87 from camp.
fuh, tired mired.

bye!

selamat malam.

2009-11-02T15:07:00.004+08:00

this was randomly taken yesterday before sleep(:
mother changed my pillowcase into something I couldn't suit myself with. so I changed to the old one :D got stars and planets and all hahahha ape aku merepek kat sini.

today, was bio SPA. I didn't tremble as much as physics but honestly something went totally wrong, and oh only God knows. I only realised why teacher was standing around my table about 10 minutes later and then the fans were turned on (so there shouldn't be any use of the bunsen burner :/) and I thought it was too late to do it so I really chose to calm down and act as if everything's alright and make my answer booklet look perfect. sigh. then I went home and talked to ahmad and he told me someone did the same mistake hahahaa.
READ NASYIBA, READ. OPEN YOUR EYES BIG BIG AND ABSORB LIKE A SPONGE.
and then people were all writing and writing and writing and writing. it was practical man, I was practically doing nothing throughout the last 15 mins. I stared at the soot stuck on my hands :D

anyway I don't like bumping into people I know otw home. inside I was like oh shit oh shit nooooo.
after that I gotta smile :D

today thunder and lightning scared the fugly shitx out of me >.<
*hugs* I wanna go sleep, good afternoonight!

BYE !
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I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me

There's a mark you leave, like a love heart, carved on a tree

I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me

Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily

Natasha Bedingfield - I Bruise Easily ((:

booms.

2009-11-02T00:21:00.001+08:00

I WAS DOING ASTHMATIC LAUGHTERS WHILE WATCHING THIS.

HELL-O

2009-11-01T18:30:00.006+08:00

"when I'm really naughty I wear something raaad and LAAWD. you know, something.. BOOMS!" hahaha I kept repeating that line until Seha told me to shut up.

this is a bus with a camera on the outside, that looks like a mole !

today I learn smth smth on the keyboard, heh idk why so. reminiscing again, it's so typical of me eh?

did I tell you the other day I bumped into Eka Mairina twice and Onni once? I mean, in one day. cool eh? coolest thing is I bump into Nasyiba Sahari every day hahha ok lame3 slap slap.

I super slacked today and tmr's O lvl Bio SPA on respiration, hahaha and I so don't understand the open/close heart valves thingy. eeeyur X(
guess I'll be staying up late. slap slap X(

today's a normal Sunday with Monster nagging all day cos it's a non-school day and we're supposed to:

1. wake up early

2. follow her to the market or

3. do many many housework

4. especially if you're going out, you must do work FIRST.

5. or else she's gonna call your teachers and even the principal.

one day she's gonna resort to the cops I guess.

very little time, I have.

till she really ruins everything.

you knew everything about me but you just made it worse.

to tell you the truth I've faced what you're facing before, when I gave you a call that night to talk about the chance I had, remember?

but I said no, cos I loved you, I loved you, I loved you and now I don't know why.

the sky is purple ahh!

ps. don't macam paham.

dance camp, look-alikes?

2009-10-31T23:52:00.008+08:00

ini nasyiba :D

suddenly she looks like nicole scherzinger ehh?

ni ida nerina.

norfa? no !

ini dia suzanna the sundel bolong hehehe I cannot get any better pic -.-"

no more walking uphill .

hahha remember syf?

assembly place

she. is. vely. vely. keeeyoot.

this is Evan, from Hwa Chong, a proud chinese doing Malay Dance ^.^

farewell.

FWAH3.

pretty kanx.

syahidah, shasha omg I remember :DD

the girl in the middle totally looks familiar but we still haven't figure it out hahaha (she says I look familiar too).

and the girl on the far left is molly, her size and voice remind me of siti nasriah so I asked if she knows siti nasriah then she went "HUH?"

hahh they vely cuttteee.

pris !

their vely large huge enormous gigantic dance studio.

ardella, era.

lunch timeee.

OMG OMG. :DD

my autobiography ?

2009-10-30T21:43:00.003+08:00

since Evan tagged me on fb note and I don't know how to use it (wakakaka) and I'm bored.

1. Where did you take your profile pic?
what? blogger? from blogskin duh.

2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
a white baleno tee with a pink butterfly and black pants.

3. What is your current problem?
dealing with heartaches. huahuahua mcm paham.

4. What makes you happy most?
for now, dancing my heart out. generally, love.

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade !

6. Any celeb you would marry?
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

7. Name some one/persons with the same birthday as you:
Priscilla Poon(ptps), Zulikha(ptps), Maria(css junior) haha wow.

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
HAHA yah.

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
yeah.

10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
YES. zack and cody :DD && PINGU !

11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
Malay. and Monkeynese.

12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away?
really close to. . nope.

13. Do you ever watch MTV?
duh.

14. What's something that really annoys you?
liars!

Chapter 1

1. Middle name:
what's middle name in the first place? the name in the middle of the whole name on my IC? heh, binti.

2. Nickname(s):
baa, nash, syiba.

3. Current location:
clementi ave 5, blk dotdotdot 12th floor 5m away from the door.

4. Eye color:
brrrown.

Chapter 2

1. Do you get along with your parent(s):
I'm an anti-parents.

2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?:
oh I forgot.

Chapter 3: Favorites

1. Ice Cream:
chc chip / strawberry ripple.

2. Season:
winter, no sweat :D

3. Shampoo/conditioner:
sunsilk / palmolive

4. Favorite Thing:
music.

Chapter 4: Do You..

1. Dance in the shower?
yeah, like when I play my mp3 while bathing? :B

2. Do you write on your hand?
last time.

3. Call people back?
uh?

4. Believe in God?
yeah.

5. Any bad habits?
I tend to look at myself and fidget when I see the mirror in the dance studio heh.

6. Any mental health issues:
hahah sooooooooooon.

Chapter 5: Have You.

1. Sprained stuff:
my ankle and left spinky !

2. Had physical therapy?
no.

3. Gotten stitches?
no.

4. Taken painkillers?
the 70 cents painkillers Seha got me for my left spinky, you mean? HAHA

5. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling?
no but would love to !

6. Thrown up at the dentist?
hahah no.

7. Sworn in front of your parents?
eyy I think yes.

8. Had detention?
HAHAHAAH once.

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last

1. Movie(s):
yesterday? A walk to remember :'(

2. Three people who texted you:
Ridhwan, Priscilla, Nadhirah.

3. Person you called:
Marsha

4. Person you hugged:
urmm. ateeqah!

6. Person you talked to on msn?
Molly.

7. Thing you touched?
the mouse.

8. Thing you ate?
banana muffin !

9. Thing you drank?
fruit punch punch punch.

10. Thing you said:
shikes. (my mixture of shucks and yikes)

11. Person you kissed:
myself in the mirror? ok kidding.

12. Place you went:
toilet.

13. Friend you saw:
Ardella in 151 bus !

speechless.

2009-10-30T19:47:00.003+08:00

In my mind I talk to you all the time.
In my heart I seek you.
In my dreams I feel you.

ps. thanks.
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perhaps sarcastic, perhaps real gratitude.
let's take it as a win-win situation now.
you get someone new, and I let go, a heartbreaker.
to think it all over again, the whole thing was so fugly stoopeed.
yeah like you said, the truth hurts.
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dance camp was booms!
performing street jazz and hip hop next week with some other orangies !
will be uploading pics soon.

tmr will be aesthetics meeting for a musical heh3, mcm paham.
anyway I ate 6 cereal bars over 4 days heh3 APPLAUSE.
nice lor :B

xoxo,
baasyina heh3 wtv.

ps. GRR I love that fugly thang you were talking about!

FOLLOW THE LEADER.

2009-10-28T19:08:00.004+08:00

today smth happened that amazed me, totally !
I was so shiok dancing and dancing and also cos my back hurts when I slouch,
when they gave us a break time and I sat on the floor with the rest,
I found myself sitting straight with a posture.
awh man I loike.
now I want a nice butt:D

my body aches here there and everywhere, but it's worth getting them once in a while. oh and and, I want to do street jazz and hip hop next friday for a public show and I practised & practised until I realised, next friday got css marketing. hmphs aku ilfeel(hilangfeeling) hahaha.

and I discovered so many awesome things can?
modern dance/contemp. aren't that difficult after all (though it takes years to master them), I can jump and turn with one leg high up backwards ! though when it comes to split I can't do nuts. hahahah ohmygoat.

some people really stand out, like one ang moh girl who got me jealous cos she bought the 100 over bucks dance shoes. (siao, I don't even need them)
and her body is damn nice even when she stand and do nothing.

well it's really showtime, even if you do crazy stuff or make a fool of yourself, as long as you enjoy the dance. I made new friends too;)

gonna hit the dance floor again tomorrow !

xoxo,
baa.

ps. what if?

my everything,

2009-10-27T23:17:00.003+08:00

for awhile, I totally lost my strengths.

ever felt like you don't belong?

a super random day.

2009-10-26T23:02:00.009+08:00

the early moon(:

meet my new friend Sufiqa, she likes to take pictures like that .

nice righttttt.

today was super random.

1. had lunch with Raa at JP McD's.

2. met Rex up and off to keppel bay.

3. met Marsha, Essyqah, Sufiqa and others at city hall.

HAHA don't ask me why so random, the people for number 2 & 3. the important thing is I had fun.

what a hot and humid day it was, :( climate change.

sigh. don't ask me why. imy.

toodles ! (:

ps. nyeh nyeh nyeh, don't talk to me about boyfriends!

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... single?

- ...

... YES !

you never know what you've got till it's gone.

2009-10-25T21:37:00.003+08:00

I couldn't upload this SYF pic of me floating hahahha like matrix like that :DD

anyways yesterday night I totally dreamt of acting in Slumdog Millionaire and Jai Ho was everywhere perhaps cos yest during css marketing I was singing it over and over again. In my dream I was with this hindustani man who looked like Hrithik Roshan but the stupidest thing was I super don't know how come Jai Ho turned out to be the name of a car. ohmygoat then got drift hahahhah sooo cool one my dream ^.^

my boot scooting baby is driving me crazy,
my obssession from a western - my dance floor date !
my romeo, romeo, a cowboy god from head to toe,
gonna make you mine, better get in line !
5, 6, 7, 8 !
hahahahaha ohmygod I remember dancing to that in PTPS modern dance X)

tmr going out, yayness!

whoamygoat Mother's dancing to Makhluk Tuhan Paling Seksi hahahahaha !
eyy and. the dance camp includes Stage Make-up workshop wahahahhahah I so loike.

toodles :D
all the best for your Os, to whom it may concern hehe.
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I wish time would just slow down, it's all too fast.
X(

ps. can I hug you please? X(

shut up bitch.

2009-10-25T16:10:00.006+08:00

Nasyiba here Nasyiba there,
Nasyiba this Nasyiba that.
Nasyiba's no longer Nasyiba,
she's tired already
and her patience is 99% used up again
before she flare up like then.
when's she ever happy with me?
teachers tell me to be patient,
how long?
ps. I'm losing respect for you.

2009-10-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

urgh. fattie .

oh and can I say, qayyum should watch this?
HAHAHA it's funny nak mampos.
"and then he opened the gate and touched my breasts... but I like"
tenacious bcomes tennis shoes.
persuading becomes first wedding.
associate becomes I saw shit.
chicken nut bread and she cannot breathe hahahaha oh my.

oh and watch css malay dance in action at the 7th minute ;D I love their dikir :D akar mekar <3 ohgoats, ismahairie, the violinist :X

2009-10-24T20:36:00.003+08:00

today I got my hair combed. it's never supposed to be combed.
howells.

had css marketing in the morning and was zombie-ing.
reached home at 11.30 yesterday
oh today right I went to the health carnival just to taste the best milo from the milo man in the milo lorry but when I reached at 11, the stewwpid milo man went off.

now sony is waiting at void deck and I'm blogging HAHAHA.
ok coming.

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back. my friend, I really don't like it when you talk about some things.
that's when I just keep quiet. heh.
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oh dear. I can't believe I'm doing this.
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,
life is a maze, and love is a riddle.
I don't know where to go,
I can't do it alone, I've tried.
and I don't know why
heheheheheheheheh.
eh no, I'm not falling in love.
the thing is I'm lost.

today no KC and chipmunk :(
and I think I can't sleep cos of the frappe and my 8 hours of beauty sleep.
fr-ape is not the correct way you know, it's fraaaa-pay. with the toink on top of the e, like beyonce's name.
so how am I spending the night?
I wanna read a book I wrote for you daily back then and hopefully decide on what to do with it now.

I think I have a.. a problem.
when I hate someone, it's mutual hatred and the problem lies in the fact that I don't know why they are mad at me since I'm the one who should be mad. well. who cares.

anyway I still can't believe I'm going for cik som said's workshop?
eh wow. okay period.

I think I should come back to my problem. like really I don't know why they are mad at me. stewpids. when you break someone's heart, you don't get mad at them but they get mad at you right?

eh let's try the talking with no s thingy hahahahahhaa

yehterday night wah awehome. met up with hyazwan, taufiq, qhayreel and yat at clementi mrt platform they were late and 7 trainh pahhed can? baa mrajuk.

anyway trained to pahir rih and walked to pahir rih park jengjengjeng-ed along the way and otw home ah well.

I wah the only female peitonger, you heeeeeeeeeee. I'm huch a friend.
hahaaha htop it.

Atee's mum is soooo cute! and her brother too ! haha
that night, I heard the world's most terrible laughters. qhay can laugh damn loud until people look at him and still he kept cool and atee's brother laughs like so cartoon that we laughed along.

ate, talked and joked abt USA (-.-") and yeah it's very fun to be with them.
walked off ard 9plus and got home at 11.30pm.
wow eh nadh?
it's not all the time that I get to stay out that late.

okay basically I love kudakeps.
bus-ed to pasir ris mrt and trained to clementi with 3 peeps.

today was css marketing like I told you at jurong pri and bumped into amirah's sister she totally made me freak out cos I really thought it was amirah cos she called me the exact way amirah would hahahahahha. monday, out with dancemates? hmm may be considering. I REALLY WANNA CHILL OUT. I REALLY HAVE TO. :( let's chill with people and I really hope it works.

done, I'm done. (:
toodles.
ps. I'm considering you out cos they say you're arrogant and it's contradicting that I trust them more cos I was looking for the right word to describe that flaw of yours. *gasps*
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I REALLY AM MAD AT THE WAY THINGS HAVE TO GO SOMETIMES.

I figured one word that best describes MY life.
pathetic.
once I thought I'm superwoman and am strong to have been through so much at such a young age and to have come a long way but when I think twice,
... I figure I was wrong. jusssst look at me now.
look at what I've been doing for so many years every time I get to be alone and think of my childhood. I'm deprived of everything that fills other kids' lives.
check out my birthday wish every year since 2000.
yeah very young I was but I had a dream. so how long have I been putting on the hope?
it's impossible now cos every little thing has been torn apart. I miss everything and am waiting for the next time that I feel like the happiest girl on Earth again around them.
I'm the chosen one, unlucky. I thought it would end some day, but it never did. instead I'm facing more of life's most disheartening moments each time I try to get up.
and idk why the people whom you want to be with just can't be there for you, though you know if they could, they would. and that part kills you. you know life would be so much better with them around, but yeah that's just the way things are.
shall I repeat, life is unfair?
instead you get to live with monsters in the house, and that just aggravates matters.
and one thing is when you try really hard talking to them about how lucky they are to have you cos you've tolerated soooo much with them (:B) not like other kids would, they just still wouldn't understand. cos they suck. parents these days really suck.
sometimes I literally get mad at monster I call her stupid for quitting school at such a young age (but it's not because I'm proud I'm still schooling) and going for a jerk and give birth to children whose future is uncertain. please la life needs planning and all. I'm mad that she doesn't get a good job and look at us now. and to know that the jerk owes us like 12 ooo dlrs as in 2008, really hurts inside knowing things are that unfair. or else life would be normal. I remember telling: aku tak suke orang tkde duit HAHAHAH. tapi tkpe, kite tak perlu berlagak kan. I know it's selfish but if you come to think of it, you'd agree with me. you might think I should be grateful. bt I'm not, I'm really not cos I don't wanna be here in the first place if all I do on Earth is to live a pathetic life.
I can't wait to taste a real life.
sigh. don't I have a long way to go.
:'(
when was the last time that you cried?

2009-10-23T00:21:00.004+08:00

gambar lame kape? hehe :B

chipmunk: EHH ! MISTERI JAM 12 DA START LA !

KC.. CEPAT BALEK KC... CHIPMUNK TAKUTTTT *sobs*

(he sobs DAMN CUTE can?)

KC.. CHIPMUNK TAKUT KC... *sobs*

ehh ! SAPE BUKAK PINTU TU? SAPE TU?? *sobs*

PLEASE GO AWAY !

HAHAHAHAHAH IT TOTALLY MADE ME LAUGH.

chipmunk da lah high-pitched, ZOMGHOST. klaka nak mampos.

today's atee's birthday, gg bbq at downtown east right after dance :D

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ATEEEEEEQAHHH MWAHHH!

(hahah aku sweet kan kan kan??)

2009-10-22T19:48:00.003+08:00

I dreamt of Adibah Noor recently and I was so excited to tell but ... (fr once idk who to tell)

Have you ever felt like you're different in everyone's eyes but none of the impressions really reflects who you are? everyone knows you on the outside, but no one really does on the inside.

moral of the story?

never have only one best friend.

today I didn't come to school (like again, yeah?)
lazed around at home (hahah I like laying in bed with a whole mattress on top of my body, feels warm)
I met up with afiq at clementi and then off to jurong east via west coast so I drove past the school and saw many many ppl in the field. why arh?

anyways. I want chocolate from paris ^.^ hahahaha
then I got art and craft stuffs for gifts and I got this whole set of jagged scissors :D
mcm budak kecik. then stickers, vanguard, and shape cutter(?) muahahaha.

then lepak-ed.
there's this whole life that I miss. losing you, is losing myself.
I'm sorry I can't understand it still. everywhere and everything is you, you and me, we, us. until when? that's the friggin' question that gets me going goats. I wonder, is everything gone to waste? well not everything has to end nicely too, eh? call me stupid, after all this time. naive, I was. very very.

after so long I touched it again, gave it a shot, and then another one.
abeh giddy. lembek.
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" I gave up everything I had on something that just wouldn't last but I refuse to cry, no tears will fall from these eyes. "

2009-10-20T19:35:00.019+08:00

2nd day 191009 (last day of raya)

hahha my hand like promoting the tap like tht o.O

the men. no the boys.

bling bling dazzle dazzle ! ;]

carrots!

hahahahha. anyway at shasha's they played the game that scared me cos got blood.LOL amirah vs nadiah ahahahhahahaha !

kipas :DD

gay, hahahha

tong sampah spoil

hahaha the joker !

nadh's

GUESS WHO'S THIS. hahahha !

first day, 181009 was better cos we stayed out late

and watched dance flick HAHAHAHAHA OMG sooo funny.

"I'm here to pick up my son"

*picks baby up and put him back on the carrier*

"I'll come next week to pick him up again"

*walks out of the house*

HAHAHAHA.

"don't you have a dream instead of being a street thug?"

- "yes I do. I wanna be a doctor... a vaginacologist"

super sick sometimes, whole lot of hilarious crap.

Ridh's mother very cool ^.^

Amirul's mum is friendly and nice to talk to and is ranggi hehe :B

1st day was 6 houses: ezzul's, cikgu's, hakim's, zul's, ridhwan's, amirul's.

they jammed at amirul's, hmm not bad (: ezzul sang and agung played guitar.

and every time we drink at amirul's, they get high.

especially after ridh's house for 2.5 hrs, hahaha horny horns popped out.

cabbed to clementi with agung, abey and shasha and reached home near to 11.

2nd day started early so we finished very early since only got 3 houses hahah

hmm nadh's, ahmad's, shasha's.

shasha's hse was the longest since I guess ppl realised it's the last house and last day of raya some more so they played games and chilled like the real chilling in the fridge. hahha ohh wtv.

afterwhich mirah nadh and me went to wc plaza to roam around like jakuns. hahah

my house, wait until I move out then can lah okay? ;]

hahah.

but it's sad that we only go out during raya all together huh and next year is Os I don't think we're going raya any more then before we realise we're actually graduating already :'(

3hml raya 181009

2009-10-20T18:14:00.007+08:00

ahha, drama la him.
check out the one behind, yah, I look like ghost . hohoho

the the the baby is szxooooooooo cute !

zul's

hakim's

Mamat JM (jual mahal) . hahah

(((((:

cikgu's

like something something hahaha

adorable!

ezzul's

2009-10-19T20:20:00.003+08:00

OHMYGOD I'M SOOOOOOOOOOO CRANKY.
suddenly otw home from raya today.
idk what was I thinking.
my bill came.

okay out of point anyway.
I feel dead !
and when I checked out how will I die on fb,
they say, old age. quick la quick la.
Seha said she can kill me but logically she wouldn't right.

I changed my fb photo cos I felt like crushing it if it was a piece of paper.

I hit the dictionary when someone apparently was finding fault with me urgh.
annoyed.
"kau makin jadi-jadi eh"
wtv, bitches.

bitches are off to somewhere and I was soooo waiting for them to bitch out cos I wanna have everything to myself and urgh it out.
OMG life sucks.
BAM ! my usb cable flies.

I'm really mad today and I don't know exactly why.
somebody talk to me.
gimme a hug. :'(

friends.
some friends appear only when you're down to sincerely make you feel better,
but others pretend to do so, and then they ruin you.
so where are the true friends, please?

IHY. why? hah.
Ihy for being in my mind.
for making me think too much of things that don't matter.
for making my life pointless.

you can literally burn the pictures in your photo album,
but how do you burn the pictures in your mind?

ps. just take me away.

2009-10-17T18:08:00.006+08:00

sometimes I'm cool.
but sometimes I'm really mad.

at you.

GOR GOR GOR GOR GORGEOUS. jean-baptiste <3

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"ala. pakailah kasi aku tengok"

"OMG. ... so gatal"

hahaha.

sigh.

I DON'T CARE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT.

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people are people and sometimes we change our minds

but it's killing me to see you go after all this time.

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tmr is raya outing ^.^

sunday: ezzul's, cikgu's, zulhilmi's, hakim's, ridhwan's, amirul's, amirah's.

monday: almas's, nadh's, shasha's, amyraa's, lea's, nadiah's.

hanis and syarizan don't want :(

anyways.

I can't decide what to wear.

kebaya or kurung.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Mama's off to hougang and Seha's otp.

I'm alone in living room with the lights off.

ahha, I loike.

today is quite dull

but I watched Apa Artinya Cinta (kerna aku ngga ngerti deh)

and I think I saw the Transamerica Pyramid in San Francisco in tht movie.

ahha;]

"aku sayang sama kamu"

"aku juga sayang sama kamu"

well I understand it better now hahah the suspense is like toot cos the slow-mo effects are overboard sometimes. but I love their cinematography:B

byk comment plak aku.

ehh someone got scolded during a match because of chasing a butterfly HAHAHAHA.

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baby.

2009-10-17T02:29:00.002+08:00

and after we talked.

ahh.

some simple truths are hard to digest.

good + bad day

2009-10-16T19:42:00.005+08:00

free.

like winter :D

today, everything kinda balances.

today, God answered my prayers.

but there are also things that are amiss,

I'm helpless about that.

good stuff first yeahs.

1. I'm super duper excited about the dance camp. well though I'm gonna miss the deeparaya concert that I've been working on, I really am happy cos I get to see awhhhhxome ppl like cik som said and other professionals. ohmygoatshit, I really loike.

2. he offered me to join persadaku seni. back then I was considering teater tari era but if he recommended then life's easier right. but then comes another story. they are doing a show next year. but, . this year, or after Os? a part of me says: heck, it's my life. tsk.

I don't love what I do.

and I want to do what I love.

cos then I'd do better.

right?

if I carry on, I'm going against the ppl here. but it's smth I really want:( and taking the risk will mean if anything happens, she's gonna blame it on me. me and no one else but me.

this is where I'm stuck again. it's quite worth right? just weekly practices. ? :B

yeah. at woodlands. :X

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oppportunities don't come all the time, remember?

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anyway today dance started at 10am and they were doing deeparaya item. I woke up at 10.30am but I know what to do now when that happens. hahahha buy food for them.

I reached 1.5 hours late and only got to do 2 rounds. I didn't know at all at the time that I will miss the concert. stupid.

then it ended at noon and Abg Rizman gave us chicken rice treat at teban with su, nadh and zie.

hahahha had FUN.

"lu rabak kapaaaa"

"..... siak. .......siak."

and his laughter on the phone was super tak bleh angkat, funny nak mampos.

RIGHT AFTER LUNCH, I was extremely clever to go play swings at teban and then got giddy and felt like puking. (: clever bum bum. it slipped off my mind. then I felt a surge of freedom looking at the sky listening to bagaikan puteri hahaha.

then it was A Living Planet seminar and thank God, it wasn't like Just One Earth and indeed I enjoyed it. O.o super interesting fact, that part right. I was thinking, why can't one just play a part? every little effort can combine to make a vast difference right? CHEY ! maciampaham.

anyway do you know; to prepare a fast food meal, 5000 litres of water is required? now I know.

hahah and if the greenwhatever thing melts due to climate change, sea level is gonna rise up to 7m.

and and North pole is getting a lot smaller. like really. a lot.

where do you wanna keep the cute polar bears and penguins? at home? ok lame.

by this time are you laughing your ass off? I reckon yes hahahI think some day I might when I look back but I want to be able to grow up and have a family (: and have Earth to live on.

WHOAHMYGOAT.

I DID NOT SAY ANYTHING. (nadh's style hahahahhaa)

anyway I was the only one in PE shirt and Mr Methias got me asking a question he wrote the previous day and was like , "hey, the one with blue eyes, can you do me a favour?" hahah then I took out.

Nadh: my heart is too good.

Me: my mind is too good.

hahahahha. we're good people ((:

so asking a question about WWF International is sooo not me. heh.

after that I was off to jp cos GUESS WHAT.

I was telling mother my cravings while I window-shopped. so

mother: you want them?

me: yeahhhhh.

mother: okay. but must promise me that you won't sleep late any more.

HAHAHA omg I didn't know that really matters to her.

awww.

then we shopped for SOMETHING;D and ohgoats I touched sooooo many clothes today. I was thinking of wearing some super bling bling tube for disco. hahaahaa. but manx, I loike.

"kul brape kau mawu ciiiaaaoooo?"

HAHAHAHA she is tooooo soft-hearted that her ciao sounded like a cat. I taught her the real way: kul brape kau nak CIAO.

hahahah omg these days, I really really loike.

I'M A POTENTIAL SHOPAHOLIC.

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I know she's bad. she's evil. she's not human. for real. I don't even know why she's my nenek. but now I know that's not her.

YAH . my life and family revolves too much on these things that sometimes I think they don't exist and ppl just believe to satisfy themselves. but it matters now.

we can't keep going on like this. we're family. and just bcos of one monster, breaking ties is unreasonable.

show them the whole truth.

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I miss you and I think you should know and already did.

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sometimes it really seems like we're the bestest friends. we spend A LOT of time together and idk if we get sick of ourselves. HAHHA. we disagree sometimes and are honest about that but still we never fought seriously or feel awkward. I got a feeling I want you as my best friend but we are super similar cos we both hide some things about ourselves. we both see our craziest moments but we never shared our breakdowns. and one day we both will look back and reflect on our friendship once we part, I'm sure(: and I cherish you. I really do.

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if you're coming back, I've got no idea. I really don't want another piece of history in future.

oh yes. ! I forgot totally.

at Teban, aku nampak dia. he gave me a long glare to confirm it's really me before this super sharp (!) jeling. oh, aku sungguh tak heran.

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FORGET.

WHY?

HURTS.