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Saturday, October 24, 2009
today I got my hair combed. it's never supposed to be combed.howells.
had css marketing in the morning and was zombie-ing.
reached home at 11.30 yesterday
oh today right I went to the health carnival just to taste the best milo from the milo man in the milo lorry but when I reached at 11, the stewwpid milo man went off.
now sony is waiting at void deck and I'm blogging HAHAHA.
ok coming.
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back. my friend, I really don't like it when you talk about some things.
that's when I just keep quiet. heh.
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oh dear. I can't believe I'm doing this.
I'm just a little bit caught in the middle,
life is a maze, and love is a riddle.
I don't know where to go,
I can't do it alone, I've tried.
and I don't know why
heheheheheheheheh.
eh no, I'm not falling in love.
the thing is I'm lost.
today no KC and chipmunk :(
and I think I can't sleep cos of the frappe and my 8 hours of beauty sleep.
fr-ape is not the correct way you know, it's fraaaa-pay. with the toink on top of the e, like beyonce's name.
so how am I spending the night?
I wanna read a book I wrote for you daily back then and hopefully decide on what to do with it now.
I think I have a.. a problem.
when I hate someone, it's mutual hatred and the problem lies in the fact that I don't know why they are mad at me since I'm the one who should be mad. well. who cares.
anyway I still can't believe I'm going for cik som said's workshop?
eh wow. okay period.
I think I should come back to my problem. like really I don't know why they are mad at me. stewpids. when you break someone's heart, you don't get mad at them but they get mad at you right?
eh let's try the talking with no s thingy hahahahahhaa
yehterday night wah awehome. met up with hyazwan, taufiq, qhayreel and yat at clementi mrt platform they were late and 7 trainh pahhed can? baa mrajuk.
anyway trained to pahir rih and walked to pahir rih park jengjengjeng-ed along the way and otw home ah well.
I wah the only female peitonger, you heeeeeeeeeee. I'm huch a friend.
hahaaha htop it.
Atee's mum is soooo cute! and her brother too ! haha
that night, I heard the world's most terrible laughters. qhay can laugh damn loud until people look at him and still he kept cool and atee's brother laughs like so cartoon that we laughed along.
ate, talked and joked abt USA (-.-") and yeah it's very fun to be with them.
walked off ard 9plus and got home at 11.30pm.
wow eh nadh?
it's not all the time that I get to stay out that late.
okay basically I love kudakeps.
bus-ed to pasir ris mrt and trained to clementi with 3 peeps.
today was css marketing like I told you at jurong pri and bumped into amirah's sister she totally made me freak out cos I really thought it was amirah cos she called me the exact way amirah would hahahahahha. monday, out with dancemates? hmm may be considering. I REALLY WANNA CHILL OUT. I REALLY HAVE TO. :( let's chill with people and I really hope it works.
done, I'm done. (:
toodles.
ps. I'm considering you out cos they say you're arrogant and it's contradicting that I trust them more cos I was looking for the right word to describe that flaw of yours. *gasps*
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I REALLY AM MAD AT THE WAY THINGS HAVE TO GO SOMETIMES.
I figured one word that best describes MY life.
pathetic.
once I thought I'm superwoman and am strong to have been through so much at such a young age and to have come a long way but when I think twice,
... I figure I was wrong. jusssst look at me now.
look at what I've been doing for so many years every time I get to be alone and think of my childhood. I'm deprived of everything that fills other kids' lives.
check out my birthday wish every year since 2000.
yeah very young I was but I had a dream. so how long have I been putting on the hope?
it's impossible now cos every little thing has been torn apart. I miss everything and am waiting for the next time that I feel like the happiest girl on Earth again around them.
I'm the chosen one, unlucky. I thought it would end some day, but it never did. instead I'm facing more of life's most disheartening moments each time I try to get up.
and idk why the people whom you want to be with just can't be there for you, though you know if they could, they would. and that part kills you. you know life would be so much better with them around, but yeah that's just the way things are.
shall I repeat, life is unfair?
instead you get to live with monsters in the house, and that just aggravates matters.
and one thing is when you try really hard talking to them about how lucky they are to have you cos you've tolerated soooo much with them (:B) not like other kids would, they just still wouldn't understand. cos they suck. parents these days really suck.
sometimes I literally get mad at monster I call her stupid for quitting school at such a young age (but it's not because I'm proud I'm still schooling) and going for a jerk and give birth to children whose future is uncertain. please la life needs planning and all. I'm mad that she doesn't get a good job and look at us now. and to know that the jerk owes us like 12 ooo dlrs as in 2008, really hurts inside knowing things are that unfair. or else life would be normal. I remember telling: aku tak suke orang tkde duit HAHAHAH. tapi tkpe, kite tak perlu berlagak kan. I know it's selfish but if you come to think of it, you'd agree with me. you might think I should be grateful. bt I'm not, I'm really not cos I don't wanna be here in the first place if all I do on Earth is to live a pathetic life.
I can't wait to taste a real life.
sigh. don't I have a long way to go.
:'(
when was the last time that you cried?
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